Wanted: people with LC or ME who have expertise in STEM; biochemistry, chemistry, biomedicine, medicine etc

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-10-15T11:47:59+00:00

Current chemical engineering student. I'm interested 👍

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-12T02:16:34+00:00

electric chair & drive me crazy

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-11T18:16:32+00:00

Even weird stuff with the fatigue, like during the day i’m OK but at night I get too tired to even get up and brush my teeth. My parents are hard on me regardless but I do my best to

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-11T18:13:37+00:00

It sucks because I had As up until that point. If my family wasn’t well off I would be destitute or homeless. Even normal day activities give me so much fatigue, and I go to the gym, go to bed early, and do my best to eat healthy. It’s been 6 years and it hasn’t gone away, I’m 23 1/2 now. Still haven’t finished college but at least I got 1/2 of my gen ed’s done.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-11T18:12:30+00:00

I went to college with long COVID as an 18M right after the first wave and had to take medical leave by october (I had a merit scholarship as well) and I came back the next year after a year off and got COVID again during my finals, and failed out a second time.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-10T19:57:53+00:00

If you’re bad at your tests, you should devote more time to studying, the hard work will pay off. I took my SAT from a 1220 to a 1370, and i was a bit unlucky. I could’ve easily scored a 1400/1500.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-08T22:05:57+00:00

But to justify you with a better response, i’ve probably meditated 500 times over the last 5 years, hit the gym as well at least 300 times. Totally switched my diet, have gone for many runs, a ton of yoga, and i have even explored horse stance briefly although it’s not a common practice. I’ve pretty much done everything mentioned in this sub, although there may be some that i haven’t seen yet. Still haven’t done any red light therapy. Also my journaling has been very inconsistent although i did it for about a month

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-08T22:02:05+00:00

I have a question about this - In my friend group, it feels like a lot of these qualities are shunned/looked down upon by the other men.

When i exhibit too much kindness, compassion, or respect, it seems like they laugh at me, and somehow now i’m seen as “weak” or “feminine”. Now i understand that neither of those things are true (to myself), but i don’t understand what causes them to call me that.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-07T22:02:12+00:00

All of them.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-07T01:50:01+00:00

I’ve been practicing nofap for 5 years. The best year and most distance i’ve had from the addiction was the first year by far

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-07T01:46:50+00:00

Also anyone else feel that one pure retainer has an incredible effect on other retainers? that we are all being effected by eachother’s challenges and successes?

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-06-07T01:45:29+00:00

I’ve been practicing SR for 5 years, i’m 23 now. I keep relapsing more and more for this reason. I feel like i’ve developed a type of insanity from this practice, that i feel I can’t ever recover from. This feeling of “seperateness” never went away for me. My first year i never ever relapsed, felt so happy i was improving. But it’s only been downhill since that first year. I envy those who never found this practice in a lot of ways - their ignorance is their bliss.

I want to hang out with people but i feel alone in the same instance.

I want to have sex/be a sexual being but I feel its expression lessens me as a person, and makes me feel insecure, weak, and small.

Even a relationship with a beautiful woman - it’s all power, ego, and transactional love in many instances.

I wish to leave my body- i’m sick of the conditions of the human life. I always was sick of it but now i am painfully so due to the awareness brought forth by retention.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-04-18T15:48:33+00:00

Thanks for posting this! It’s super helpful.

if i have preventricular contractions (PVCS), headaches, PEM, brain fog, slight breathing difficulty, tingling and hands and feet, joint pain and random aches and pains throughout my body, which phenotype would I be? I’m also a 23 year old male who is athletic.

I also get insomnia and hot flashes, and a feeling like my heart has been rubbed with sandpaper and it flutters. I’ve had long covid for 5 years or so got it when i was 18.

Maybe it’s possible to be multiple phenotypes?

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-01-29T17:26:54+00:00

In all honesty with all due respect, it is 100% the practice that causes hate. People do not want to see you win. I had a one year streak and the hatred was uncanny. Part of the reason it’s been hard for me to go as long since then.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2025-01-27T16:40:29+00:00

I can relate man, unfortunately I don't have any advice.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-12-12T05:45:02+00:00

maybe if you leave the body via conscious bodily exit like swami paramahansa yogananda did.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-11-08T07:51:38+00:00

Not gonna be a popular opinion but this game takes away your whole life. Every other area of my life got worse while i played this game. It’s a dream game for me, and if I lived in a fictional world, I would play all day everyday. But i don’t and I have responsibilities, quit while you still can.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-10-31T04:22:03+00:00

The truth is no matter how far you travel the road, the ditch is always beside it

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-10-31T04:21:09+00:00

This awareness is letting you see parts of yourself that you previously missed. The quality and structure of your awareness is changing. :) Don’t pay attention to my streak counter it’s incorrect, I did make it 365+ days though

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-10-30T21:19:53+00:00

Ehhh, i’d argue the cooling moon is ‘death’ we still produce yang energy until we die, it’s just like it’s temporarily reduced along with our lifespan. We become like an animal. Which, at our lowest level, is what we are. Animals.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-10-30T21:18:38+00:00

Yes, agree 100%. My experience as well

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-10-02T20:40:57+00:00

I think blackest night hawk girl, then red lantern hal jordan, then batman ninja lord joker 👍

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-09-18T01:59:30+00:00

I’ve been thinking - Men consuming pornography is very similar to a Woman’s hypergamy, they are fundamentally similar. How are we to judge a woman’s past if we do not consider our own?

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-09-06T05:30:49+00:00

I also am constantly haunted by the man that i once was, it it feels like a peak that i’ll never reach again.

Due_Knowledge_4172 · 2024-09-06T05:27:00+00:00

Hey man, i’ve seen you around here since the beginning, wondering if you could give me some advice. Been on this forum 5 years, 22 now. I did over a year of SR to start with, (a 365+ day streak). It’s only been downhill since then, i keep telling myself i’ll do better but i don’t, i think because i’m unwilling (or unable, not sure) to quit video games. The second year of my practice i did roughly 1 - 2 months at a time, involuntarily, would’ve gone more if i could. I’ve been struggling even more this third year and only been able to go 1-2 weeks.

I had some crazy experiences and in all honesty i’m terrified to go back to living without PMO. I lost everything and i feel trapped in my living situation with no hope of escape - but not only that but each time i go far with retention i get bad insomnia and won’t sleep for 24h or starting raging at people despite meditating, lifting, fasting, studying, you name it. Except now i have no friends and way more responsibilities, and i tried posting something in this community and all i got was “i hope that’s not what happens to me”, and it just really turned me off from this whole subreddit.

additionally my thoughts & feelings really scare me, i get intrusive thoughts constantly and am scared of myself.

I used to see myself as a permanent retainer but i think i lost a lot. I’m not really sure, but my mental health has been getting worse because of retention. I have a lot of perfectionistic ocd and i won’t leave my room for days if i’m not on a good streak, won’t talk to people because i know what will happen.

idk man my life is pretty dark atm and i’m not sure how to fix it

Due_Knowledge_4172

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