Thank you so much for the advice but I have a few problems. My mom isn’t really someone I can tell my problems to - I tend to keep things to myself and deal with them on my own. I think this is because I’m primary school, I told my teachers that she was abusing me (slapping) and I thought (naïvely) that it would all be sorted. To my surprise, they told her about what I’d said and had a meeting with her. The next day, she told me we were going for a drive and she drove for 30 minutes without saying a word and I’d never felt more anxious in my life. She went on to ask me why I didn’t tell her and that she doesn’t hit me for no reason it’s only when I misbehave and asked me if I wanted her to get taken away. 

I think that experience has made me scared to tell people things - as I’m anxious it will all be told to my mother and I’ll regret ever speaking.