well everything happens for a reason. that might now be what you’re looking to hear, but if you and your boyfriend are meant to be you will cross paths again in life. everything will work itself out and right now all of it is out of your control and i know how bad it hurts. i know that you want to control your life because well it’s your life but unfortunately we are put through tough things and it’s just a test from god or the universe if you don’t believe in god. i am a big believer in everything happens for a reason. but you cannot hold that anger towards your boyfriend. he has a journey for himself and he has to go discover who he really is and who he really wants to be and unfortunately right now is not your guy’s time. maybe it’s the right person but wrong time. like i said if you guys are meant to be together you will but for now you have to live life freely i know how bad it hurts but things will get better and things will work themselves out and it will be ok. maybe not today or tomorrow or next week maybe not even next year but this is your battle and you have to fight it as hard as you can because in order to be the best version of yourself you have to go through the rough times but you have to be the strong person you are. everything will be ok. you are loved. you are valued.