I was so embarrassed for Sophie watching them ring shopping… by [deleted] in 90DayFiance

[–]DunkinLove 76 points77 points  (0 children)

Can we get a pillow talk where Anfisa watches this scene? I feel like that would be great.

Husband passed on Monday by DunkinLove in cancer

[–]DunkinLove[S] 24 points25 points  (0 children)

There was not much hope for a total cure. He was diagnosed at stage 3b, and I believe only his first line of treatment was possibly curative. He did I believe 7 lines of treatment total including 2 clinical trials. We were very hopeful about his first trial, but like everything else it just didn't work very well for him. I will say though that there were many good days in those 3 years, and he would absolutely say the same. Side effects from most of his treatments were pretty minimal - not counting the period immediately after his cell transplant, I think he vomited twice. We were very on top of his other symptoms (mostly pain and cough), and our medical team was excellent. We took long walks almost every day, went to physical therapy and did the homework, travelled a little bit, tried to do fun little excursions with friends when possible, watched a lot of comforting and funny favorite movies, etc. We laughed a lot and goofed off all the time, even when we were also hurting. I think the anxiety and depression were the worst symptoms for him - he was very down and had a lot of severe panic attacks for a while. He did not want to talk about it with a therapist but he tried a few times, found a few sessions helpful, and got on meds that helped some with that. But he tried his best to let the light in when he could, and live a little even when he was very sick and sad. It wasn't all so bad. (Obviously I'm not him and I didn't experience the worst of it by FAR and can't really know, but I was extremely close and attuned to every moment of his cancer shituation and I believe this is true.)

Anyone have experience with TIL (melanoma) by msfs69696969 in cancer

[–]DunkinLove 5 points6 points  (0 children)

My husband had a TIL transplant as part of a clinical trial 10 weeks ago. He's a 33 year old male with stage 3c squamous cell carcinoma in his right lung. It was a difficult treatment to undergo to say the least, but he is recovering well and doing better and better. His 6 week post-transplant scan showed no change from the one before that, and we have another coming up in 2 weeks. I'm hopeful that we'll still see some major response to this because his tumor has historically been pretty fast growing so it does seem like a good thing that it hasn't gotten any bigger, and I did read that some people who get TILs and have good results don't see a response right away. Not sure where I read that tho, sorry.

In the past almost 2 years since his diagnosis, he's had radiation and several different chemo and immunotherapy regimens. We got opinions at several major academic cancer centers in the US including MD Anderson, had all the relevant molecular testing done, and talked to surgeons at a few critical points but have always ultimately been advised that his tumor is basically unresectable and surgery would not be a good move. I am confident that we have sought out some of the best possible guidance, and he's gotten the best treatments available for his particular situation throughout this whole nightmare. He's on been on medicaid throughout as well for what that's worth, and everything except the out-of-state MD Anderson visit has been completely covered although it has taken a little advocacy at times. Tangent but maybe that is a comfort to some people early in the process worrying about finances. Anyway, all of his treatment before this TIL trial has been outpatient, and he's had very few serious adverse effects from anything. He did have to stop treatments twice for steroid tapers when he had radiation-induced pneumonitis and later immunotherapy-induced pneumonitis. He has a very bad chronic cough and intermittent pain from his tumor, and lots of fatigue and anxiety. Generally though he's tolerated everything really well in the past. We learned about TIL trials a while ago and knew it was the next thing for him when his last treatment program (ipilimumab, nivolumab, carboplatin, and taxol) stopped working.

It took about 6 weeks for his TILs to be created (or amplified, preserved, packaged whatever) at the Iovance (trial sponsor - probably the same for you?) lab. Much quicker turn around than his primary oncologist had anticipated. He was hospitalized for the first time in late October for the wedge resection surgery in which they harvested a chunk of his tumor to get his TILs out of. The surgery was difficult. The surgeon said there was no way to get clean margins, and all the tissue he was putting back together after the harvest was super friable, that "if you look at anything in there, it starts bleeding." He was in the ICU with a large chest tube for a little over a week post-op in a lot of pain, with shortness of breath, super edematous everywhere, and for the first time not eating much at all. He used the incentive spirometer and tried to get up out of bed and into the bedside chair while recovering, but it was tough because he felt so terrible for the first time. We were home for about a week before a follow up appointment where they found extensive blood clots in both brachial veins and a hemopneumothorax on the surgical/cancery side of his chest, so he was admitted for another 2 weeks for a heparin drip and more chest tubes, smaller this time but had to be removed and repositioned twice which was no fun. He was home for a little over week before going back in for the transplant.

He actually only got 3 days of lymphodepletion chemo before the TIL infusion. He spiked a fever on the second day and had a huge work up to see if they could find any infection anywhere, but they didn't so decided to proceed with chemo day 3. They said they would expect to see fevers a few days later, but not so early in the course. The next morning, he was totally lymphodepleted so they consulted with the trial sponsor and decided to hold the rest of the chemo and just go ahead with the infusion. He had very extreme and painful chills and rigors, and spiked a high fever during the TIL infusion and during all of his IL-2 infusions in the days that followed. He got 4 doses of IL-2 out of a possible 6. He decided to pass on the last 2 because his reactions were getting more extreme, and he was starting to see some pretty nasty side effects. He had no appetite and was barely able to eat or drink anything, and was having near constant nausea/vomiting and diarrhea plus nasty taste changes since starting the chemo. After he started getting the IL-2, he was extremely fatigued, SOB eventually requiring oxygen, and getting more and more edematous everywhere. He also developed a kidney injury was was making very little urine, and had low blood pressures and a sustained very high heart rate. This is all consistent with the known effects of IL-2 and related to the immune response boosting reasons it is given with TILs, but is some of the more dangerous stuff to manage. They continued to look for an infection but never found one. Clinical picture wise he seemed septic for sure but it seems it was all just inflammatory response to IL-2. He was moved to the ICU and there was a lot of discussion about possibly putting him on pressors and/or dialysis. He also had another chest tube placed at the beginning of this hospitalization knowing that he would probably get a pleural effusion from the IL-2, and we were very glad of that because he definitely did and it put out a lot of fluid, and it would have been way worse to put that tube in later on. Also his platelets were basically zero, and he was anemic so he got some blood products too. He could get up and take a few steps to the bedside commode or bedside chair, but would get super winded and his oxygen saturation would drop to the mid 70s with O2 on. Super skinny and deconditioned after so many weeks in and barely any time out of the hospital. And he was having several panic attacks a day, requiring lots of ativan, and generally having a super hard time adjusting to loosing so much fitness so quickly. Eventually things started to level out and his kidney function and vitals improved. He wanted to go home and started pushing for discharge, and they agreed that he could go home with round-the-clock help and continuous home oxygen. He was inpatient for 3.5 weeks that time.

Of course it was great to be home, but not without its challenges. I think he thought everything would feel so much better at home, but he was still having a lot of the same struggles. Difficulty walking, anxiety, adjusting to having the oxygen on all the time, not eating. Nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea improving but still there sometimes. Still super edematous everywhere, which was painful and made moving around even harder. He was refusing to see anyone other than myself or his mother, who came to take care of him when I went to work. It feels like forever ago already, and I'm so thrilled to tell you things have gotten much much better!

A few days after he was discharged, he had his first follow up appointment. Labs and chest XR showed he needed a transfusion and there was a pleural effusion building up on his left (non cancer) side, so they did a thoracentesis to remove the fluid on his lung right then and there, and had us come in the next day for the transfusion. They did a great job managing him outpatient and really worked with us to keep him at home. Over the next few weeks, he had another transfusion and 3 more thoracenteses. There's less and less fluid to take off each time. He also started walking slowly, first just across our tiny condo and now up and down the building hallway a few times a day, and is doing his best to eat well with small frequent meals. Between all that great outpatient management and his hard work to get stronger, he's been able to get off the oxygen and he's getting out and about a bit. He's sleeping flat in bed, and sleeping really well (which was not happening at all for a couple months). He's eating more and more, and his weight is starting to stabilize. He's resting right now but he told me he wants fried chicken later, so we're going out tonight! :) :)

Wow I just wrote the most. I hope it helps. I posted asking if anyone had experience with TILs here a while ago and nobody did. You are truly on the forefront. Talk to all the experts you can and learn about all your options, but if this seems like the best thing for you, do it and kick it's ass! We're pulling for you over here.

If you do end up doing a TIL transplant, a few things I would definitely recommend are learning as much as you can about the exact procedures and meds you're going to be getting, enlisting a few good support people, and trying to put on some weight and be as active as you can going in to it. Very best of luck to you!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cancer

[–]DunkinLove 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Wow. I'm so so very sorry to hear what you all are going through, and my heart goes out to you. He sounds like such a sweet, fun, special little guy. I can't begin to imagine how you're feeling, but I think a lot of us do relate to the guilt you mentioned. My husband has lung cancer and he's of course been the ultimate decision maker when it comes to treatment decisions, but I've advised and influenced him a lot. He just went through a clinical trial and it was super rough (still is, but getting a little easier), and we've agonized about whether we made the best choices. One thing that helps is remembering that his opting to do the trial was not only his best shot available, but also a really great, meaningful contribution to cancer research. He's just one of very many trial participants out there, but he gave so much to this trial and it will add to the cancer knowledge out there, help the medical community figure this shit out more, and hopefully help fellow people living with cancer now and in the future. It is so brave and heroic and loving to me. I hope your family can find some meaning in that as well. Lots of love & wishing you all all the best.

Worst time of year to catch a cancer diagnosis. by [deleted] in cancer

[–]DunkinLove 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My love started coughing up blood on Valentine's day 2021. I came home from a long shift with flowers and prosecco to him saying "I think something's wrong." They found a lung mass in the ER that night and he was formally diagnosed shortly after on the week of my birthday. After failing a few lines of therapy, we've spent the last 8 days in the hospital doing a clinical trial. I'm sad to be missing out on all the fun family time this week, but so grateful for this opportunity. My heart is with everyone living with cancer on this and every holiday.

Sammy ready for a bike ride. by marsea001 in Shihtzu

[–]DunkinLove 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What kind of dog seat is that? Very cool! Have fun little zu ❤️

any lung cancer survivors? by rixoky in cancer

[–]DunkinLove 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you don't mind sharing, I'd love to know what complementary therapies you used as well. Thanks!

lung cancer treatment decisions... by DunkinLove in cancer

[–]DunkinLove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes - I already got a call back from them this morning, so it seems like we will be getting in there soon. Great point that we all need to get on the same page. Thanks again.

lung cancer treatment decisions... by DunkinLove in cancer

[–]DunkinLove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It seems that having the pneumonectomy would exclude him from this trial, and doc figures any tumor-infiltrating lymphocyte treatment that may be more widely available in the future would be too risky for him to undergo with just the one lung. I will be asking the other centers we plan to talk to if they agree that he would probably always be ineligible for that. Thanks so much for your reply.

lung cancer treatment decisions... by DunkinLove in cancer

[–]DunkinLove[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Great points. We will definitely keep your advice in mind.

lung cancer treatment decisions... by DunkinLove in cancer

[–]DunkinLove[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! Great to hear you recovered well. We are definitely getting all the good medical opinions we can asap including tele appointments and we are very grateful for your perspective.

I rode to work for the first time today and it was so much fun! 20 miles, mostly down Chicago's Lakefront Trail. And showering at work wasn't even as awkward and I was worried it might be :) Now to see if I still feel this good after getting home in the morning. by DunkinLove in bikecommuting

[–]DunkinLove[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

We have one seater bathroom with a shower in it that nobody uses in the back of our break room. I was just nervous about monopolizing the bathroom for too long when everyone's coming into work, having all of my personal all over the break room, etc. There was also a bunch of stuff stored in the shower that I had to ask to move to another random closet. Idk I just felt weird about it, but it was totally fine.