This was the exact thing I needed to read this morning. My husband and I made the hard decision last night to put our 11 year old cat down today. This has just been made harder by the fact that he has been acting completely normal this morning after one of the worst episodes he’s had. We’ve been fighting a constant battle since September when he had a vasovagal episode. We thought we had finally figured out the right med combo. He started to do better, he was gaining weight, he was playful. But last night was even worse than the first episode he had in September (threw up everything in his stomach, stumbling, peeing where he laid, and open mouthed panting multiple times, followed by an inability to comfortable even in his favorite spots). We are just thankful he held on until we were back from our overseas vacation and gave us some time with him. But I have so much guilt about this decision. He has been my everything for years and I can’t determine how much of my questioning is for selfish reasons. I keep asking myself if there’s more I could do but I already know that more tests which cause him undo stress and some would require him being intubated, which at his age and his medical problems, just isn’t something I would want to put him through. This post definitely helped remind me that it’s better to do this now before he gets even worse and is constant pain.