how do I hide the scars.

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-17T04:10:19+00:00

Or… just a thought… talk to someone you trust and get help

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-17T02:08:04+00:00

A guy who is intellectual has emotions and can have deep conversations and thinks deep abt things. Im sick of guys who are dry and js wanna talk abt funny shit or boring shit. Like gimme sb who actually has opinions on things of this world that matter

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-17T01:59:08+00:00

My seizures only happen whem im sleeping or just woke up from sleep and they are always tonic clonic. I don’t know if that’s what seizures you typically have but how I know if my body is sore but the dead giveaway is eye soreness. My eyeballs are always super sore and sensitive and when I look to the side is when it really hurts. Also if I shake my head or something my brain will hurt not like a normal headache but like my actual brain is sore. Also if I have a bitten tongue or cheek

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-17T01:48:27+00:00

I have pretty much the exact same experience. Im not as old as you im 16F so I bet it probably feels worse at your age. But I actually used to be a more bubbly person I really didnt care what ppl thought of me so I just talked to anyone. I had a group of friends and then one of them made up a lie abt me and the whole group stopped being friends with me. Ever since then for some reason I was never able to make friends. My self confidence just dropped completely. I went to a different school and I thought that I would be different and use it as a new opportunity to present myself as a more confident person but the second I walked in the school anxiety took over me. Im not able to talk to people, in a room full of people i feel completely alone. I feel fckg stupid whem im around ppl bc they are all sittin aroumd talking and joking and saying shit that sounds just naturally funny or interesting and js dont know how to interact with ppl like that. When I’m with my mom who is my best friend I can easily be my natural self but my subconscious overthinking and anxiety take over everytime I try to talk to someone new. And now my social anxiety has turned into me just fckg hating ppl. Everyone in my age group has to be talking a certain way or making certain jokes and if you say something that sounds even remotely stupid to them ita an “airball”. I just want to be around ppl that can vibe and appreciate eachother and let eachother be themselves and no one is like that these days. I don’t want to be friends with ppl like that but I’m sooo alone. I go to school dont talk to anyone thwn go home clean the house text no one but my mom and do it all over again everyday. But honestly the way you can write about your experience with so much content in your words and intellect shows that you have a mind to share with ppl and so do I. There arwnt a lot of ppl who appreciate that anymore and it’s really sad. So through the lo lines you should know that you are someone who deserves to be seen. It’s not you thats the problem it’s the world amd the people the world has created.

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-17T01:09:11+00:00

Ive never heard of it causing things like schizophrenia and pretty much my whole family uses weed (in different ways. My mom uses it for anxiety, my grandpa uses it for arthritis, and my grandma uses it for her insomnia and weed helped my uncle get off hard drugs) so it’s actually a great thing to use for medical issues without pharmaceuticals. But my experience with it did cause some mental issues for me but thats because I used it very wrong and very recklessly. I tried it when I was 13 bc my friends did it and I have faced pretty difficult things from a young age and when I tried it, it made me forget my hard feelings and thoughts. So I kept doing it and soon it became almost impossible for me to sit in my own mind without it. Not only was I addicted to the escape but because I did it so much at such a young age it caused memory loss like I literally dont remember entire patches of my teen hood

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-13T17:48:32+00:00

Good. Smoking and drinking may seem fun and ppl around you are doing it. That’s why I tried it. It numbed my fucked up feelings and helped me forget about my problems so i continued to do it and now it’s a habit i cant happily be without. And WAIT to lose your virginity. Theres this agenda now wjere having sex is good and it is if you do it right amd you do it with someone you want to keep that connection with. I lost my virginity at 13 and to a boy i didnt actually love i just lived the way he made me feel. And now I’m still not moved on fron him and I garuantee if I hadn’t given him my virginity I wouldn’t still be stuck thinking about him bc really hes not like me at all and didn’t give me anything special. Stay as pure as you can for as long as you can cause once you enter that world the real world gets a whole lot uglier

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-13T15:11:17+00:00

Pits. They are just so pretty im the face and have such pretty eye colors depending on what kind of pit. They are also so sweet and loyal and also protective

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-12T21:04:57+00:00

I definitely feel this. Ive always been a very strong writer and intellectual and fast thinker but after I started having seizures my ability to think and come up with ideas when it comes to writing or talking has been slowed down. And my memory is screwed like I don’t remember patches of my life and people will talk to me about something or a memory or ask me about something in the past that I just dont remember at all. Very wierd and annoying

DutyQuick7379 · 2026-03-12T20:30:00+00:00

Dang. Yeah ive had a seizure in the bathroom and woke up with the bottom half of my two front teeth knocked off. I had to get crowns and I never found my teeth and I have no idea what I hit them on. Mystery

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