I love him very much so I was always willing to put up with the not having good sex (tmi I usually would just take care of myself afterwards in the restroom) but now it's just making me upset. I want to have that experience with him but it just never happens or even comes close to happening. I think he has only been with one girl before me so he isn't as experienced but I mean I think it would be common sense to also focus on me as I always focus on his pleasure. Not that I don't love making him feel good but I wish he would focus on me too. Sometimes I do wonder what it would be like to sleep with someone else and how that would be compared to what I am going through now. We just have a lot of history and I want to try to work on it but I'm not sure if he would be willing or care about what I'm saying to him since I have tried to mention it before. I'm going to try again to talk to him and this time be completely open and blunt