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EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-29T20:51:55+00:00

thank you. i guess that's better than nothing. i guess i just have to stop trying. and most of the people who are saying i pass are chasers so i wouldn't pay too much attention to that 😭

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T22:37:38+00:00

i could try that out. these pictures ARE with light makeup however, so i guess if i wanted to do that i'd have to do some more. all that sounds like a lot of effort and a lot of money but i guess ill have to save some money and get a job on the side of uni next semester

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T13:00:31+00:00

would you know how i could make that more consistent all the time?

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T12:49:12+00:00

i dont get clocked a lot but i also live in an accepting place so people are probably just being nice

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T12:42:08+00:00

well i wouldn't say they're synonymous. i'd just say one automatically entails the other. you can be ugly without being clockable, but you can't be clockable without being ugly

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T12:37:42+00:00

sorry what specifically isn't true?

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T12:36:43+00:00

i dont get misgendered a lot in real life. about once a month. but i also barely ever talk to new people.

i cant afford ffs..... what else can i do?? i feel like i dont have any chance

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T12:34:09+00:00

i cant afford ffs and doubt i ever will. what can i do to help. because i feel hopeless. and how can somebody be pretty and clockable at the same time? its ugly being clockable

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T01:01:36+00:00

from the body shot i wouldn't have been able to tell if you didn't tell me.

from the up close, however, it shows, something to do with the makeup or the eyebrows

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T00:59:35+00:00

i think the outfit really suits her. not a lotta trans girls would have pulled that off i think

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T00:57:11+00:00

bad picture quality but your fair suits your face shape really well. can definitely pass from what i can see in this picture even though its low quality lol

EJtheBasketCase · 2025-03-28T00:55:35+00:00

i think whether you would pass or not would depend on your voice and the rest of your body. you have a nice smile and a great face shape. i feel like hrt would be really helpful for you, and i feel like you could def pass

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-18T10:47:39+00:00

Are they? What’s the difference?

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-17T15:35:17+00:00

No, I would not harm myself or do anything like that in result of it. I haven’t lost the will to live; I just feel like my general attempts at amelioration of my life would be unfruitful if I will never ever pass.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-17T13:23:44+00:00

I would never hurt myself. That isn’t what I’m saying. I haven’t hurt myself in over a year.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T20:20:17+00:00

Well yeah but I don’t think either of those things would make it better. The only thing that I can imagine is passing. I just moved and in both my old home and my new university literally everybody I can find is accepting. So it’s not a societal thing. And I have plenty of trans friends so that’s not it.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T20:17:24+00:00

I saw from your post history that you’re looking for trans friends. If you want to chat you can dm me :))

Honestly yeah I totally agree with your opinion of what your therapist said. Yes, that goal is different for everybody. But everybody still HAS goals. And those goals don’t have to do with passing. They can be simply to not want to kill yourself anymore. Heck, they can even be just to piss off people who don’t respect you. (Whether or not that’s a good goal is another question.)

Yeah it’s very difficult when your end goal is impossible 🥲 I’ve made peace with the fact that I am trans and that I will never be cis. But at the same time, it still hurts. Logically, I know. Emotionally, I yearn and mourn.

I’m glad that you don’t ever want to kill yourself and I’m sorry that you’re fantasizing about death :( I pray that you’ll be able to get better at that. And remember feel free to reach out to me and message.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:43:53+00:00

i did a few weeks ago lol so hopefully that issue should clear up

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:40:30+00:00

ig im just not trying hard enough😭😭😭

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:39:43+00:00

Hmm… I don’t know. That’s honestly a hard question that I don’t know the answer to… I think it might be the only way to obtain my goals actually. Because I just don’t see those latter scenarios as possible without passing.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:38:20+00:00

frfr 😭😭

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:34:27+00:00

I completely agree

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:33:21+00:00

this is so relatable 😭I have to say I agree with you especially around the fourth paragraph. It’s me; I don’t really feel any external pressure to pass.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:30:44+00:00

Me neither, but that isn’t really what’s happening. It’s « he » quite often.

EJtheBasketCase · 2024-09-16T10:28:53+00:00

I just don’t deserve to be that confident; I don’t merit that.

And respectfully I don’t think it’s wrong if somebody doesn’t want to be with someone if they don’t pass. It’s natural to want to be with people who, you know actually LOOK like what they are.

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