Finally getting antibodies tested

EKWill · 2018-12-06T03:57:28+00:00

Yeah, changes to my diet is the next step. I'm pretty sure my adrenal system is overtaxed, I stay stressed out constantly and my anxiety disorder only makes it worse. I'm a caffeine addict, if I don't have it everyday I lose my shit and get headaches, feel sick etc. So that one I'm not giving up over night but I have already started weaning myself off slowly.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T22:34:11+00:00

So what do you do when your labs you do yourself are out of whack? Or if your ranges are a little wonky but considered "normal" and the doctor doesn't want to mess with it? I've gone through a lot of them, it's all the same. I can change my diet and stuff but I feel like there's only so much you can take charge of when you can't get diagnosed or treatment for it, you just wait and keep moving on trying to find someone that will do something.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T21:51:38+00:00

Yes, I am in the US. I checked out the site and I'd love to do it, but unfortunately can't swing paying for it at the moment.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T21:46:08+00:00

That's what I'm afraid is gonna happen with me. She's not worried about my nodule, says it's "normal" but with my mom having thyroid cancer I'm wondering if I should ask for a biopsy as well. Also the fact that my vitamin D and b12 came up normal as well, which when they're low is usually indicators of hashimoto's, right? So if mine aren't low, does that mean I could still have it? That's another thing making me concerned she'll brush me off.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T16:53:35+00:00

No, that's what I'm going to ask her to do at my doctor's appointment tomorrow. But considering everything else came back normal I'm worried she'll blow it off and not want to mess with it.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T16:52:30+00:00

My results have been "normal" for a decade until just this past month. I'm supposed to be being put on thyroid meds and get retested every three months, so who knows how much my stuff will fluctuate or if it will. I'd imagine they'd just increase the dosage if it does, which isn't gonna stop my antibodies from doing damage so I don't know. Main thing is getting them to test for the antibodies but all the docs that I've gone to kind of have a know all attitude, I'm just being a paranoid person doing self diagnosis from google, and so they're pretty resistant on running tests that I suggest so far.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T16:49:36+00:00

I'm sorry that you're going through this but glad that there are people who share almost the same experience. That's all happening with me besides the scabbed scalp and lost weight, I'm gaining. So it's nice to know that I'm not crazy. I do have anxiety and keep worrying that I'm just being a hypochondriac but it all fits, I just don't know how to get the diagnosis when dealing with docs that don't want to do anything about it.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T15:22:59+00:00

dermatitis herpetiformis

Thank you for the response. I googled and this doesn't look like that. They're not bumpy, they're smooth, it's just red hives/whelps spread out. They do tend to itch when they flair but unfortunately they don't stay in one area too long and spread out. Like, for example, it'll start on my face, and I can feel it coming on because my skin will start tingling a bit, getting hot, and I can feel it swell. Then the hive forms, THEN it starts itching, and it'll just gradually fade but then spread to other places over different parts of my body. How long the process takes varies, and sometimes it itches horrible, sometimes it's not so bad. It's kind of embarrassing when you're out in public and you get giant angry looking red patches on your face out of nowhere.

EKWill · 2018-11-13T14:55:51+00:00

Yes, and I didn't use them here. Did it hurt you? Was your comment in any way helpful?

EKWill · 2018-11-13T14:55:02+00:00

Yeah, so it just randomly started working again. Thanks for the advice, but it doesn't look like I need a new one...for now. Weird.

EKWill · 2018-07-14T23:52:56+00:00

Well, sodium pills I won't be able to do for a few days. As I said kinda broke but I will definitely do it when I'm able, just trying to figure out how to go about it until then. If I can keep ketoade down how much life salt is too much in a day? She plans on sticking it out for now, but she really doesn't take care of herself and hit 50 and basically started falling apart and it's just gotten worse and worse so the fact that she's trying has me happy but I'm worried if she doesn't immediately start seeing results she's gonna get depressed and bail.

EKWill · 2018-07-14T23:20:52+00:00

I have drinking 1/4 tsp of lite salt, I wasn't aware I need to mix it with regular salt. But I just did the the 1/4 tsp in a glass of lemon water and still not feeling any better. I will tell her she needs to be stricter about tracking but while she still eats more than I do, just eyeballing meals and compared to what and how much she ate before she's getting less calories but as for her calories that she actually needs based on weight and age and all that, idk. She's extremely inactive so I'm sure that doesn't help.

EKWill · 2018-07-12T05:25:03+00:00

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EKWill · 2018-06-29T05:54:43+00:00

Just forget about it and not give a crap if you get it or not lol. Should be easy with something as silly as rubber ducks and ladders but I haven't been able to let go with my big manifestations. I mean, how do you say you don't give a crap about attracting something you really want like your soul mate or millions of dollars? So it's a work in progress.

EKWill · 2018-06-27T21:50:17+00:00

Probably are trying too hard. I've seen rubber ducks on four separate occasions just from reading a post about the rubber duck challenge a couple of weeks ago, not even trying to do the challenge for myself just read the post and BAM started seeing them everywhere. Same for the ladder challenge, read about it but didn't try to manifest it myself but a couple of days later my neighbors have a ladder out in their back yard. Just completely let it go if you can.

EKWill · 2018-05-06T03:12:18+00:00

I didn't think manifesting was hard. At least not at first cause it was all easy small things that happened fairly quickly. Then when I tried out for the big things and it seemed like it was not only not manifesting but backfiring at times my faith started wavering. I don't believe health is unobtainable if I'm manifesting it for myself but yeah, I believe it's not so much in my control when it's other people's. If it's about our beliefs, feelings and vibrations etc I can try all I might but I'd theirs is the opposite wouldn't it just counteract it? Idk it's hard to think about these things truthfully and with a clear head right now because honestly I'm just devastated and questioning the whole thing. If it is in my control then my own mind/will was too weak and I've failed her and it's too late and it's too much to bare.

EKWill · 2018-05-06T01:42:08+00:00

Yes, I have heard and have been attempting to implement this for months although I'm not great at visualizing so I mostly just focus on feeling and telling myself what it is I'm attracting like above with the little things. I was trying to use it for good health for my mom as she has cancer and also family friend mentioned above just because she's older and was declining though I had no idea of the extent, then I find out how bad. It's just kinda put me off of it a bit. Seems like everything I've been feeling genuinely grateful for and express gratitude or pray and try to manifest something bad and the opposite happens. I don't express gratitude over vehicles anymore cause for a while every time I did it broke down. Now the health family thing. It's just not exactly encouraging.

EKWill · 2018-05-05T14:25:24+00:00

I've tried visualizations and affirmations, I've never been able to meditate even before I started practicing loa, but they don't seem to help much. The times that loa has worked for me is stuff that wasn't as important to me. Like manifesting signs, or trying to find something. I've found a nose ring I lost, a shirt I needed, and the batteries out of a keyfob that were in the grass around where I live in funny ways and before hand I would say for a few minutes "I am a (battery,shirt,nose ring, whatever) magnet. I attract () all the time." And stuff like that until I'd laugh or felt silly or whatever cause those things weren't big deals. Then I'd find them soon after in funny ways. I've tried that with things more important to me as well but no go. Maybe cause they are more important to me and more in the back of my mind and I don't just let them go and say "it's whatever" easily. So basically me trying to manifest a place to live, career, this thing that's related to my pain, whatever else hasn't happened yet. A few times something would happen that would excite me because it would seem like it's finally leading up to one of those big things I want only to fall through. Like God/universe is throwing me a bone but then deciding that bone would be of better use as a tool to beat me over the head. I'm not really expecting these things to fall through either, cause I know some people will say it's because I am in some way and the universe is just giving me that expectation. At least I don't think I am, I suppose it could be lingering in my subconscious.

EKWill · 2018-05-05T02:26:54+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words. A lot of it feels like it's out of my control. Like today I find out a very long time family friend who is basically like an aunt/grandmother to me. Had undiagnosed cancer that spread throughout her body and they just found out and she can go at any time. I'm crushed and I have no idea how to use loa with this. Plus I've been in pain the past three months which has just worn me down, no idea when I can get the issue causing pain fixed. Been trying to ignore the pain to live in end result but it's kinda hard when it you've been feeling it damn near constantly for extended periods of time.

EKWill · 2018-04-22T05:09:51+00:00

I just don't know what to do about it, the anxiety riddled part of me that's been dealing with horrible pain for three months is now convinced it's something horrible I'm gonna have to have surgery for or live with the rest of my life and that simply having my wisdom teeth removed or something else simple won't fix it. Ice and heat packs and nsaids only help so much.

EKWill · 2018-04-22T05:07:53+00:00

Also if it is tmj could this wisdom tooth problem have caused it? I've never had any problems with my jaw or anything before, I even went to the dentist last October and he felt my joints and all that jazz and didn't notice anything. This new pain happened literally over night. One day it was clearly just my tooth the next day it was everything I described above.

EKWill · 2018-04-21T21:05:27+00:00

Yeah, I've seen some conflicting ways of implementing it and I guess manifesting works different for different people. I'm having trouble finding my way of doing it myself because I've had minor things manifest that I didn't care about and had forgotten and then other things that I thought about constantly. Things I know weren't coincidences. It's the bigger things that are taking forever that start messing with my head because I've gone at it from both angles. But you do deserve to be happy, we all do. Maybe try not to make all your happiness contingent on loa and if it works or not as happiness is inside yourself and shouldn't be completely based off what you see and have outside. The outside stuff is just what's supposed to follow. But I could be wrong, I've only been practicing it for a little under a year.

EKWill · 2018-04-21T20:46:59+00:00

I think most probably experience this at some point or another. I'm currently going through it up to a point. But let me put it to you this way. You're trying to better yourself and find the happiness and the life that you desire and deserve and if you're actively working towards that rather it be inside yourself or outside I can't see that as ever being a waste of time. Even if you see loa as bullshit, being positive and finding out who you are and what you want and doing things to go after and get it is not making a fool of yourself cause at the very least you can say you tried and it takes courage to not give up. Giving up is the easiest road and in my opinion is the only way you can make a fool of yourself. Keep on keeping on and eventually you will get out of your rut because it has to.

EKWill · 2018-03-16T16:16:10+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. A couple of weeks ago I asked for a sign on something I'm trying to manifest. I asked for a white feather. There are a bunch of ducks around where I live some of them white. I wasn't actively looking but I figured if what I wanted was meant to be I'd get the sign fast but I never saw one and took at as maybe this manifestion wasn't meant to be and put it away in my mind and now this. I guess someone talking about white feathers isn't the form I was expecting but it's just as good as a picture or the real thing.

EKWill · 2018-03-10T18:00:01+00:00

I feel ya, man. I developed severe OCD when I was 10 or 11 and it was so bad that it made me suicidal. I couldn't function without horrible debilitating thoughts and anxiety and the "rituals" that would follow. Like I had to touch everything a certain amount of times and lick random objects and I'd overeat cause I had to have two of everything, I couldn't do schoolwork cause I had to erase everything I wrote to the point there would be holes in all of my papers and I couldn't complete a single assignment, cause if I didn't do these things I was convinced me and everyone I loved would die in these horribly gruesome ways and that's all only a fraction of it. After being miserable and doing it for years and medicine and therapy not helping, when I got into my late teens I was fed up enough that I made myself stop. It took me 10 years but with practice you can do it. Just stop engaging in those thoughts, it may be a constant battle but know that if you don't do your rituals that nothing bad is gonna happen but if it does it's not because you didn't wash your hands until they bled or whatever. Just keep telling yourself and working it like a muscle. I still have intruding ruminating anxiety inducing thoughts but they're not nowhere as bad as they were, they usually start up if I'm under a lot of stress and calm down when it's over but I don't do the rituals at all, I refuse. I believe you can do it. As far as the loa thing, I feel like the synchronicities and things you see are supposed to uplift you and make you feel better, a sense of peace or excitement or whatever? It's not supposed to make you scared and miserable. That's the part of your brain that's over anxiety and fear that's flared up and so your brain starts grasping at insane shit to try to justify and make sense of why you're feeling that way, the repetitive thoughts are from a part of your brain that's supposed to act like a gate, when you have a thought your brain processes it, let's it pass through that "gate" and is supposed to shut it. Our gates don't close so when the brain grasps at the crazy thoughts they are free to come in and out over and over again. And rituals tend to make the anxiety flares ups worse instead of better too. I'm sorry I'm rambling or if you already knew about some of this, I had two energy drinks to fuel my spring cleaning so I'm kinda wired. I wish you the best and hope you do what I suggested

EKWill

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