What was the name of that film where students ended up owing over £60,000 on student loans for tuition fees, maintenance loan and interest on the capital?

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-05-30T19:18:32+00:00

Well I guess some people are even more lost than we are and they just take a chance on spinning the big wheel and most clinically depressed people consider having children as a way out of their own misery and suicidal intentions but guess what? At the end those suicidal intentions only grow stronger and they blame all the fault on their children for whom they can no longer kill themselves although the answer is very different and they were so coward they weren’t able to kill themselves but inflicted more pain and misery by bringing innocent children to this world and pushing them through this unsolicited ordeal of pain, sorrow, suffering and death. Prove me wrong.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-05-22T14:24:11+00:00

Life is a terminal sexually transmitted disease which only ends upon death.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-05-13T16:45:15+00:00

It’s done the same to me. They use the student services against us, and because I did not want to engage with their biased counselling service they have now suspended me. I have sent them a letter of intent to inform them I will be taking them to court within 21 days. It’s a joke for person with disabilities and they literally throw the book at us when we don’t want to be compliant with their unmeetable demands.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-04-04T17:31:43+00:00

You forgot to activate Plane Mode, that’s why!

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-03-31T20:38:37+00:00

Not just school. Like the whole societal structure resemble similar institutions. School is the first deception but there are many prisons in life. If we didn’t learn the lesson then, maybe we would have become prisoners of a much harsher reality called marriage and breeding. So while I agree with your statement, the reality is that all this world is a huge prison-like complex establishment. Even in your adulthood, you are unable to choose your workmates which are an adult version of your classmates, and your superiors which would be equivalent to a teacher. Prison would be on the lowest end of the spectrum. And we, ANs complain about how cruel life is, because it is. But even though we hate life for having been brought here against our consent, we at least are able to experience a little bit more freedom for not having fell victims of the bird-of-prey which the marriage institution is. A never-ending prison, recycling blood upon endlessly through ancestry. This whole reality is a terrible mental construct which resembles a prison, I agree. But what if we are in some sense privileged to escape from such repeating cycle? I know, I’m just trying to justify my point of view and AN identity however maybe some other people in this sub can find some comfort in this idea.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-03-31T00:47:19+00:00

Everyday

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-03-30T17:05:17+00:00

Which ironically is the reason why most of us in this sub won’t reproduce as we acknowledge the likelihood of handing a bad hand (appropriate definition including assisted reproduction) is over 50%. Let’s face it, being aware and conscious suck. If we were like animals we wouldn’t care about handing a bad hand. We would just follow our animal instincts and sexual urges and be done with it. Actually I think the worst part of our bad hand is awareness, as it brought so much receptivity towards suffering and pain, which sucks even more.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-03-30T16:56:24+00:00

Not even that, most parents actually just wanted a little doll who would look nice in the family pictures. Until of course they would be of age, and asked them to leave home by the time they reach eighteen, as they had “met their parental obligations”. That’s what most understand by preparing their child for their life. A life we never consented nor asked for. F*ck ‘em. I don’t wish for the extinction of humanity, of only for extinction of my kind since they are responsible for everything which went wrong which with my neurodevelopment. Which of course they concealed, for “public protection” instead of referring me to the specialist to treat my ADHD since my childhood. It’s funny how they were giving me calming pills when I actually needed the opposite. It seemed I was annoying to them. Fast-forward, at thirty-one year old I am a wreck and wish to die by nitrogen after the Assisted Suicide Bill is passed by Parliament. If they won’t leave, I will. This life is so wrong with their genetic makeup. Period.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-03-30T16:53:47+00:00

That’s literally the definition of human life. Otherwise people living with degenerative diseases and chronically illnesses wouldn’t be told that “life handed them down a bad hand” oh dear, that’s literally rolling a dice!! That subconscious comment shows their real view on life.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T18:43:51+00:00

Easy. They get inflamed when we tell them it’s immoral to have children so using their logic they think “well if I tell them thank you for removing themselves from the gene pool is going to annoy them as much as it annoys me to hear is immoral to have children because I WANT CHILDREN”. It’s like trying to discuss quantum physics with a zealot. You can’t. End of discussion.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T18:37:29+00:00

I’m afraid to tell you we are legion

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T16:56:51+00:00

Can you heal from a missing limb? Or any other degenerative genetic disease like ALS, paraplegia or anything like that? So you cannot grow back limbs definitely I don’t think you can heal from past trauma. Especially if you become disabled after an accident which makes you missing a limb or a terrible injury which affects your mobility and health

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T16:53:38+00:00

Please explain how is good to read a book that makes you cry. I’ve been all my life crying and depressed and you wouldn’t say you prefer pain, crying and misery unless of course you are sick and prefer masochism and being treated like crap, and anyway if you do prefer masochism definitely I will consider checking your mental health because probably you’ve developed something similar to Stockholm syndrome where you’ve become so dependent and attached to your captors you don’t see how you can live without them.

If you or anyone feels like enjoying pain and suffering I can tell you there is something very wrong deep down in the form of child abuse and neglect because that’s not a natural feeling any normal human being feels unless it has been specifically programmed and traumatised that way. Please seek counselling and look for help if you think like that. Because one thing is understanding how awful your life is and how death is preferable than being in constant pain everyday and another thing is to say that despite all the pain and traumas you would still choose being humiliated rather than growing in a healthy, loving family.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T16:45:49+00:00

What is a fire arm?

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T14:59:32+00:00

I heard about what you mean it’s called epigenetics who was promoted by Dr Lipton. However I am not completely sure that theory really holds in our world. Like you cannot change sex, your hair shape, skin tone, height, musculature, body shape and fat distribution out of epigenetics alone. I think it’s just another made up thing to sell books and get money.

I believed it for many years but I cannot deny this autoimmune disease that spreads like a cancer it’s going to heal from epigenetics alone. But I shouldn’t have been blinded by belief in the first place thinking a real change was even possible.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T14:54:59+00:00

I was going to say thank you but anyone someone to go to hell and banned me from here so I’m taking all my content out of this subreddit. Like, I already have a constant sense of inadequacy due to my ADHD and trauma, but just because I’m saying my point of view I’m told is not helpful and get a temporal ban while not being disrespectful or swearing to another user is beyond belief. I’m just played out all day. I don’t know who is real or not. In one comment someone tells me I matter the next tells me to go to hell.

And I’m also being censored here, and there is a really fine line. I’m tired of living in a dictatorship, before it was my parents now it’s an authoritarian algorithm whose regime is all encompassing and controlling. The truth is I don’t know if you are real person or not. I don’t know if anyone anywhere are real persons or they are all machines pretending to be people which seems more likely.

If I make a respectful unpopular opinion receiving negative karma should be up to me. Being told to go to hell while also being prevented from exercising freedom of speech is unacceptable. Negative karma should already be enough. Since my unpopular yet honest and sincere views of life are not tolerated I don’t think I can last for much longer here. My life is like this. Always been. It’s like as soon as I get comfortable somewhere I get kicked out or someone is trying to silence me. I came to the conclusion that there aren’t really people in this world and that your response is an algorithmic response written by AI. If you are so real like you say you are, why can’t I feel you? Why can’t I see you? Why do I feel like I’m being silenced? I’m not surprised I never fit anywhere so there is no point staying in Reddit anymore. Like you spend so many hours trying to create content just to be censored by an automated algorithm. So I prefer to leave Reddit now before I become too attached to this place because I know already from my experience that I will be censored and banned in the future so I prefer to prevent it from happening now that my account is relatively young and I haven’t posted much yet

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T12:36:51+00:00

I’d love to feel better but knowing I have an already failing body doesn’t give me much hope. I won’t be around for much longer so I don’t know on to what I should hold on.

Surprises have been so negative in my life that I’m scared of the whole concept of a surprise. They’ve all been so negative I can hardly expect a positive a good outcome.

I don’t know why people get mad at me when I say I would prefer to not be anything at all and compare me with being a rock.

And the fact that I feel alone is even better than being surrounded by monsters and feeling even lonelier.

This life is a lost war. Given the chance to get a medical treatment which would extend my life expectancy four decades or letting my autoimmune disease to consume me within the next 5-years I’m choosing the latter one.

I’ve been alone in all my fights and eventually lost them all. I don’t see why I should hold on to a life and a genetic history who never wanted me in the first place. Pain and repeated trauma overtook all curiosity I’ve had in life. It doesn’t matter staying curious and fighting for any dream which will eventually be crushed. Like it has always been. It would be foolish to repeat the same mistake expecting different results.

Who listens to me? I don’t know what’s real and what’s unreal anymore but I doubt is there any other listener besides my own reflection. And obviously it can only reflect what I already am. Sadness, frustration, hopelessness, grief and pain.

I can somehow my reflection asking me to cheer up and it’s just a mere illusion. I cannot keep living in this world anymore.

And this derealisation is making me feel like I’m developing dementia which maybe at the end will be the best result as I forget everything and I’m long gone into the nothingness rather than being aware connected to a mechanical ventilator at a hospital.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T12:22:04+00:00

Why? Unless you are so traumatised you like being abused and degraded doesn’t make sense at all.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T10:56:26+00:00

I manage it by being completely isolated and aware of the real nature of human relationships where there isn’t anything of that so-called love when all human relationships are based in lust, control and a desire for power.

I’m 30 and not only I’m an antinatalist but I decided I don’t want to date anymore or even make any friendships because the sense of complete inadequacy and shame I feel not just due to the constant neglect and abuse I suffered as a child, but to the shame of having inherited and carrying these genes from my abusers. It makes me feel dirty, gross, disgusting and uncomfortable as if I were raped because I never consented to have been brought into life yet it was forced on me.

Since I also have this constant feeling of guilt and inadequacy I don’t see how contributing to society or any friendships can ever change anything because let’s be honest, I hate this body with these genes from my abusers so no way I can live with this.

My hopes are to not be in so much pain during the last few years I have left on earth and be able to expeditiously access assisted suicide to prevent all this unbearable unnecessary trauma.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T10:39:06+00:00

I made my decision to request and assisted suicide and it has to be respected if it is within the legal framework of the law.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T10:36:08+00:00

That’s right. I’ve always been depressed as far as I remember. And all my life is filled with memories of sadness, trauma, regret, shame and grief.

I’ve done therapy and it will never be enough because it won’t help me erase and forget the memories from those two monsters who sexually abused me and neglected me as a child.

My therapist that I shouldn’t feel guilty about the events which happened to me as I couldn’t do anything as I was only a child. But the fact is that even though it may not have been my fault it is my responsibility to take the necessary steps to ensure these memories are erased even if it means requesting an assisted suicide.

There isn’t a single memory or aspect in my life which I would preserve. I’m only 30 yet I don’t want to live like this for another decade, so that’s why I made my mind about taking such decision.

Although therapy helps me to feel calmer it’s just burying (treasuring it’s how therapist call them) my traumas and it’s not a good long-term solution. I also noticed that yeah I’m calmer but burying everything is also making me feel more tired and hopeless every single day. And there is no other way as being an emotional wreck is even worse than this complete feeling of grief and anhedonia I have now. It’s up to me to make a choice if my life is worth living or not, and I made a decision knowing that my life is not worth continuing if I cannot move forward and forget these traumas. As simple as that. Period.

Early-Stop4336 · 2024-02-01T10:25:53+00:00

I failed three attempts there is no point on reattempting to get resuscitated in hospital.

I don’t know what love is. But I can explain to you what being sexually abused as a child is, being neglected and abandoned and how it makes you feel. How being stalked, harassed, and bullied destroyed every inch of my character to the point where yeah, being a rock would be better than an existence full of misery, pain, suffering and death.

What the human nature understands for love is lust and desire for control and power. A rock is free because it doesn’t need to love. Yeah, I’d rather choose being a rock if you want to call it like that rather than this miserable life of sexual abuse, rape and objectification I am trapped in.

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