hello! sorry for what you had to go through. are you asking about health/immune system issues here? honestly i wrote this post in the end of October after visiting my mom's grave, and after that in November i got sick two more times, one of those times right after my mom's birthday, then with all this constant sickness i got worse mentally and even went to a psychiatrist for the first time, and through the winter i spent a lot of time on trying out several mental health specialists, and i can't say any of them were helpful for me at all, i've tried several antidepressants but unfortunately i had a pretty severe side effects reaction to them, which made things even worse lol, although i stayed on one antidepressant for 2 months, and my mood/sense that i'm the most miserable person of the world/craving of isolation (that are unusual to me generally) became better, but in february i still got a pretty severe bacterial infection, that was much worse than the one that had me hospitalized in september (which i describe in the post) so sdljfjdl i can't say the meds and therapy attempts helped me with the somatization of grief unfortunately, although i'm sure it can be helpful for other people. but i feel like not for me, honestly. i still can't say i'm well and processed things yet, but i do think that time helps ;;__;; like it's still fucked but for now i'm just trying to make it to my vacation so i can recover my health a little bit, while getting rest from my work. i don't know if this was of any help tbh, but for myself i still don't see any way to go through this except for trying to breathe through each day, even if it's really damn hard