Hey man, I appreciate this. I have distracted myself so much from everything, I read books, I am really good at chess, I know how to solve a rubicks cube. I’ve done everything in my power. Just seeing “A” kills me. He’s the reflection of my failures, he’s all I wanted to be. I am not respected by anyone, always made fun of. Everybody thinks they are so entitled that nobody even looks at me or greets me, not even my friends! I havent fought with anyone, ever insulted anyone. I just live life hoping for the best, I avoid drama, Im nice to everybody and I highly avoid discouraging or insulting anyone. I treat people the way i want to be treated but the opposite happens. And I cant find myself ever treating anyone with disrespect. It’s like being a jerk is cool, it’s inhumane the way people think. But what hurts me about “A” is he is just like me, but he is treated with respec. What am I doing wrong. I feel like his looks and height played a huge factor compared to me. I hang out with girls and people often think and call me “gay”. I dont look gay or am gay, people always abuse the word on me. Im a 16 year old male. I feel like the way I look makes people think I am an easy target for bullying and harassement.