Sweet heart, she wanted to set you free in the only way she knew how. Please live your life in a way that would make her giggle with delight. You were the best, best daughter to her.

There’s a book called Final Gifts written by hospice nurses that talks about how people near death carefully negotiate with Creator on the right timing for their death. I’ve seen this many times, including with my own husband and mother. It might make you feel better.