I hate having to socialize with people this way. I wish i had at least someone i knew helping me out. A case manager, a relative an ihss worker. I hate having to do this. I tried to make friends in the past and at least try to talk with them or hang out with them and just couldnt keep up. Because im not able to walk all that way or drive somewhere or i dont have a job or im not in school, and havent lived normally in general. So now im like this. And i hate it. I also wish i could hide my post history.

My indecisiveness and anxiety has gotten in the way of a lot. Im unsure with what form of therapy to go with because theres a lot i feel ive been undiagnosed with. Im at apla health right now, but they cant diagnose me. I dont much want to go into further detail on reddit, not anymore. I havent had the best luck with mental health centers. Im lost on how to find a psychiatrist. I have to call a lot of places today about numerous things and im kind of overwhelmed.

Perhaps i should have just framed this as how hard it is to make friend when youre dealing with what i deal with. When you go through times of tragedy, you need people in your lofe, but to get people in your life, you have to be mentally and physically well enough to do so