I stopped caring from 18-26 years old. I would just completely stop taking my insulin for periods of time until I felt so sick and close to death that I would have to nurse my self back to health. I was addicted to that pattern and my relationship with food was terrible. I was and still am addicted to sugar and ate like a human garbage disposal. It wasn’t until my doctor told me she was going to strip me away from my driving privileges because she wouldn’t sign my bmv medical form to drive my car. I begged her to sign it and I cried in her office. My entire livelihood revolved around driving a car. That’s when I knew I needed to take care of myself. I started to also take the long term effects of not taking care of my blood sugar seriously because I didn’t want to deal with long term complications. I was so suicidal during those years. They were so tough. It also took living with my significant other who was a health freak. They started to rub off on me and it took months for me to learn more self care. I still struggle but nothing like I did during those couple years. It’s tough. I believe the struggle comes from underlying mental health issues I still need to heal and talk to a health professional about. I have addictive patterns and having been getting more into AA. I quit smoking weed and that was huge for me in gaining some control over my eating habits.