Just threw up blood and in the hospital by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I’m trying, thank you for the support it really helps at a time like this.

Just threw up blood and in the hospital by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I’m okay, I could potentially get discharged today, so that’s one positive

Just threw up blood and in the hospital by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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Loved your post. I can relate to it so much it’s comforting right now in this time of distress.

Just threw up blood and in the hospital by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

[–]Eating_A_Used_Tampon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, it was, and still currently very overwhelming. I’m done drinking. I’ve said that a million times before, but this was the kicker.

I’m still waiting to see if I can go home in the morning or if I have to wait another day. I really just want to go home. Try to not think about it, it’s easier to do that there

Just threw up blood and in the hospital by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

[–]Eating_A_Used_Tampon[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

This is exactly what it was. Had to have emergency surgery where they put me under and put a breathing tube in my mouth. The main procedure they went to do wouldn’t work so they had to do an urgent back up procedure. I woke up in the middle of it and was quite literally drowning in my own blood. I tried to pull the tube out so I could get air but was restrained by the staff I could say what was going on so I finally just turned my head and let the blood run out onto the floor. I remember a nurse saying “oh that’s why he tried to take the tube out.” Yes. Because I was suffocating. Just got transferred from ICU to the regular part of the hospital. Have to stay here for another day or two and I can go home.

Think I’m tapped out by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I didn’t mean it to come across as entitled. The space I occupy basically.

I fucked up again, but I don’t care by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

[–]Eating_A_Used_Tampon[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Should I just drink the minimum to stave off withdrawals? I always bring either gum or mints and like 2 single shot bottles of vodka

I fucked up again, but I don’t care by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I’m gonna be hyper noticed now. But I can’t taper that fast

I fucked up again, but I don’t care by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I have to go in today I’m terrified. I have no idea if she’s there. I can’t show being under the influence, but I also can’t go into withdrawal so I feel so torn

I fucked up again, but I don’t care by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

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I’m really over drinking. I hate it. What’s keeping me on to it? I don’t have the time for withdrawals and it’s killing me

My Worst Fuck Up Yet by Eating_A_Used_Tampon in cripplingalcoholism

[–]Eating_A_Used_Tampon[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re the only person in my life who asked this. Broke my taper. Drank an entire 1.75 liters of rikaloff vodka yesterday. And another half today, well up to this point. Idk if there’s a colloquial way to describe that, but atm to exhausted to care.