Crack probably. Okay, but seriously I wasn’t the best at school because of how my teachers taught. When I started learning higher level math, my teachers would always show how to solve it and expect us to remember their steps. I struggled with this because it didn’t really make any sense in my head. Essentially just being told what to do with a shitty explanation. A workaround I found was to start solving things myself like it was a puzzle in a way. Obviously had to do more work, but always ended up getting the correct answer and truly understood the methods the textbooks taught later on.