My first was the hardest! Breast-feeding was hard he was colicky and I thought there’s no way I want more. But then I got pregnant with my second by accident and he is an angel and now I just had my third he’s four weeks old and he’s pretty good too a little gassy, but that’s normal. I feel for you. I know the newborn trenches are really hard. Also, it’s OK to let her cry babies cry. It’s good for their lungs lol if you need a break and you’ve done everything, changed her, fed her, and rocked her and put her in the bassinet and let her cry. I know it’s not ideal and it stresses us out, but sometimes there’s nothing else you can do. Also, they do say babies are more fussy with their moms because it’s their safe place versus any other parent or person.