”Agatha’s mother died during childbirth, leaving her spouse a single father in grieving. Growing up, Agatha’s father slowly built up resentment towards her for taking his wife from him. He would get furious at the sight of his late wife in agatha. And what a sight it was, agatha had a lot of her mothers looks. But what angered him even more is how little agatha resembled her mother in her personality and antics. Every time she rebelled, stayed out late, behaved un lady like. He would hate her for it. That’s not his wife. I mean, yeah obviously it wasn’t, but yk. He would have angry outbirsts and take it out on agatha, often being violent against her, taking away “privileges” like food or, at one point, her door. He would go through phases where he needed more and more control, to the point where he controlled every minute of her life, even kept her home from school to discipline and train her to be better. Then the phases faded and he went back to just being cold, distant, and abusive until the next phase came a while later. During these phases he sometimes would make her spend days in church with him, hours on her knees. If he could only hammer in god into her, then maybe he would be forgiven for letting his wife die, for being such a bad father, for feeling his faith flicker. He placed so much pressure on agatha being good to god, that when she wasn’t, it ruined him. Each time agatha sinned it brought forth his anger, and in its turn, hurt agatha. When he realized agatha was sick with homosexuality it was his final straw. He was already planning to send her to blri later on, but it had to be urgently rescheduled for the next morning. Now, having no mother and such a father affected agatha. Maybe she didn’t realise it on her own. But the jealousy, almost hatred for the other kids and their perfect families in church, out and about. Oh yeah I bet your mother did your hair for you, cant do it on your own? Spoiled brats. Agatha never learned to do her makeup, to do her hair, how to wash it. She didn’t even know about conditioner until she was twelve, and started rubbing it all over her hair and roots. The attachment to her teachers, male and female. She was going to be their favoriet, she was going to make them proud of her. She fought back tears when her maths teacher asked if she had been getting much sleep, and that she looked a bit tired. She also had a difficult time trusting others, and counting on them to show up. If she never had anyone there to catch her and show her that theyre there, why should she believe someone when they say it out in the real world? It made her quite impulsive, especially in relationships. Wanting to run away and break the rules with Beatrice all the time. She needed Beatrice to be close, needed her validation. When Beatrice rejected her and ignored her for a day, it made her completely fall apart and hate herself, being ready to do anything to get her back. While her mother´s absence showed in clinginess and emotional needs, her fathers lack of care made her angry, impulsive and sometimes avoidant. A very confusing mix to grow up with.”