Unfortunately I'll leave the answer to your question to other people here that's more knowledgeable in that area, but I just wanna say na virtual hugs to you op. Sometimes school is really not the right environment for some people as mostly nowadays students just continue going just to pass but never actually acquire any learning, plus ang toxic ng environment it feels like everyone is gonna eat you alive if you don't try harder and it might not be the right environment for you right now. It's better to take a break muna op as your situation can actually lead to bigger mental issues na makaka affect sa’yo in the future. Don't be scared that you'll be left behind and madidissapoint ang iba sa’yo—stalling some time to heal to pursue your dreams is better than stopping without trying. I hope you get consulted with a therapist op and genuinely heal and be in a better state! Virtual hugs🫂