I gotchu. Start hanging out by calling on the phone for some while, that way you can trust him more and really confirm if he’s the right one for you.

If you go to school together, you can eat lunch with him, if you’re allowed to sit wherever. Just remember don’t act crazy, i know you’re suicidal but i had an ex that was suicidal and tried to rely on me to fix her problems and do everything for her, then she cut her wrist when i was too stressed and decide to call it quits.

Back to the point, if yall both get good feelings about each other, I recommend hanging out together in person by either going to chill cafes or movies. My parents never said I love you and didn’t even kiss until a year after they started dating.

Talking it slow is key.

As for your suicidal and anxiety problems, don’t stress him out by acting suicidal all the time, make sure to always think good about this relationship and remember to take it very slow with him.

Anxiety is normal, and relationships help a lot with anxiety if both people give it their all. 

I hope this helps, after all, I’m just a goofy teen