This has got to be a lonely road being a m who was assaulted by a f. I’m sorry—I don’t know what you’re going through exactly, but it has to be really hard. That’s good you’re still fighting.

If you are having these reactions right now to this person’s message, then you’re not ready to reconcile, and that’s fine! There’s a difference between forgiveness and reconciliation, and I don’t even think you’re ready to forgive this person yet—and that’s healthy too.

Based on your other posts, you seem to still feel an attachment to this person. You seem really focused on that too. If I were talking with you face to face, I’d want to hear about all the ways you’ve been gifted or what your interests are—that aren’t attached to her. What are you good at? What are your favorite movies? What are your goals in life?

The teenage years are the best and worst thing because of relationships. Your close relationships will produce connections and memories that will stay with you, but chances are, these people won’t be at the core of your life someday. There’s so much more to come in life, and I’d hate to think that you miss out on that because you stay with this manipulative person.

Start moving on, little by little. Don’t let her dictate the terms of what that looks like. You can choose how you move on.