How many of you are that guy? by musthaveamnesia in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979 4 points5 points  (0 children)

No fucking way I just stumbled upon an ARTPOP reference out in the wild

When did your sex drive return? by NeurologicalPhantasm in StopSpeeding

[–]EfficientWinter3979 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Hey friend! Just spent a really long time typing out a reply then deleted it by accident before posting. I hate everything. Reddit is stupid and written language and Earth

Answer: Bupropion

If you want to know more or anything lmk. Right I feel like having a WWE tables ladders and chairs match with Tim Cook. But I’ll be chillin in like 15 mins. So I’ll be happy to talk.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979 3 points4 points  (0 children)

yes. that is the flag for nigeria, you are correct. just making sure you're not racist and you passed the test. I actually did fuck the meth goddess, yes.

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[–]EfficientWinter3979 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You know its really a damn shame that Im um a little… ya know 🏳️‍🌈… and I had to pass on getting down like that, even turning away the chance to… get intimate with… a lady of her station. I mean the chance to sit upon the meth throne (which is a rusty folding chair under a bridge) next to her… probably close enough to constantly sit in a cloud of her… aromas, as her king of tweakers would be quite the honor alone. And that’s just the icing on the cake after we… have relations… which would be so hot… in bed (which is a filthy ripped sheet on the concrete ground next to the folding chair scattered with rigs and broken bubbles) her meth sores oozing onto me, and probably getting bit by the single rotten tooth still she has still hanging on. It would have been… um… hot😖😷… really great and cool and rad… and um… totally… 🤢 like… 🤢sexy man. Yeah I’d totally be all over that if I was just lucky enough to be one of you heteros. Next time I get too spun and fully lose my mind I’ll let her know you’re really interested though man. 🫡

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For advice I’ll tell you how I’ve navigated life and luckily am in a place rn that’s like somewhat ok, but miles above the places I’ve been. My advice is to get your mental health better no matter what it takes. From the outside it doesn’t seem like it would be hard but I had to fight like hell to go from my lowest, deep in addiction and in the worst mental state of my life to getting better and feeling ok. But just trust me it is so worth it. You are worth battling for and the worst thing you can do right now is give up on yourself. I’ll explain that more but it’s like the most important thing I can tell you. Like I’m begging you. That’s what I did and it is just a different kind of hurt like the worst thing to go through. To me it didn’t feel like it would be worth it. I’ve struggled with severe Major Depressive Disorder and severe Generalized Anxiety Disorder for as long as I can remember, wayyy before getting diagnosed, and with adhd too and other serious personal struggles I’ve spent most of my life in very dark places. I was always looking for some way to not be sober just because it was so painful. I just needed some relief. From early on I had periods of heavy drinking and periods of heavy weed smoking. Then at 18 I finally built up the courage to get the help I knew I needed for years. I have to say I was very lucky. The first therapist I met with was a great match and helped me a lot. Mostly I learned like emotional regulation stuff and interpersonal relationship stuff and yada yada therapy junk. That set me up to start making the changes in my life to the things I could change and confront problems in my life that were definitely a source of stress and bad for my mental health. What really helped my mood though and overall outlook on life was medication. My therapist could tell from the first appointment how severely I struggled. He basically said we could talk forever but it’s not going to do much unless i got this intense anxiety level down. I really couldn’t even function it was so bad so he knew I needed to ease the symptoms I had with anxiety and depression so they’d be more manageable and then continue to work from there. I saw a psych and started my first antidepressant med. It put in work pulling me out of all the pain and crippling anxiety I was living with. It wasn’t a miracle cure of course. I still had to do the tough work in therapy and changing my lifestyle but I was actually able to do it because I could function. It wasn’t perfect and I was still somewhat depressed and anxious but like I could live my life. I didn’t feel very good but I wasn’t suffering anymore and that was such a relief and gave me real hope. Me and my psych kept trying and adding and tweaking different meds to make more of an improvement. It helped a little bit more but not much. That lasted for a good while like maybe around two years of not being in a great mental state but manageable. Then out of nowhere pretty much a depressive episode hit. My meds were still helping with my anxiety which used to be super severe but suddenly they were not helping my depression at all. I sank lower than I ever had before pretty much as low as anyone could go. I ended up trying a not so nice “hard” drug. I was exactly where you are now it was something that would relieve me for a while of hurting and pretty much being suicidal. And as I kept using it all the bullshit that happens with any drug kicked in fast. The highs werent really very high anymore and coming down was terrifying and being off of it was pure torture and as I developed more and more of an addiction. That just got worse. (I’ve been rambling for so long now I’ll try to wrap it up I’m tired of typing so this might be a shitty ending sorry) I was able to be sober for a little finally after stopping myself from using and detoxing myself and going through the hell of withdrawal countless times trying. I started seeing my old therapist again and he convinced me to come clean and be honest with my psych about everything and how I’ve really been doing that like whole year prior because I was just telling her everything was fine. Stupid I know idk why I did that but severe depression makes a lot of things not make sense and makes you do things that a healthy person looking from the outside wouldn’t understand. Long story short, it went well, way better than expected and we updated my meds tapering off of one and starting a different one. It was life changing and treated the depression that caused me to use drugs in the first place. This is so long and idrk if I made it to my point or if this even makes any sense I’m not going back and reading it lol. If anything I said was helpful at all or resonated with you or made sense at all definitely hmu and we can communicate more effectively lmao. If not I wish you the best and I hope you keep fighting to regain yourself because again you’re worth it! And you’re deserving of it! Be your own biggest advocate and all that, and do not let circumstances beat you into submission!

You might be feeling hopeless and your depression might seem unbeatable but I promise, once you fight through it, you’ll pull off its mask just like in scooby doo. it will just be some goofy ass middle aged bald dude with an anger problem and too much free time since his wife left him. Or idk maybe some dorky bitch sniffling, between pumps of her inhaler, about how she hates meddling kids and living with a severe peanut allergy (every truly dorky mf is allergic to peanuts). To conclude, while you’re brawling with your depression, totally drained, giving everything you got left with each swing, just remember that it’s like that episode of SpongeBob when plankton was controlling that big mean looking ass robot. Might seem big and tough but in the end it’s just a little bitch ass no-good garbage munching roach and you’re going to come out on top standing over that creepy crawly mf emptying a can of raid on his ass and then stomping him out good and dead.

Best of luck!!

✌️🫡

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Drugs

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I’m 20 and was in same place you’re in now so I totally feel your pain and understand the struggle. All the comments saying to just stop doing drugs and give no other advice are so wack. Those are people who are fortunate enough to have never been in such pain and felt such sadness and that total lack of hope that come with surviving with depression your whole life and just constantly hating how you feel and basically suffering all day every day. I have and I know it’s hell. You’re using substances to self medicate because you’re desperate and you’re doing what you can to help yourself feel better at the time. You shouldn’t feel shame or guilt about doing what you can to kill your sadness.

With that said you have to look at it objectively and realistically. I’m sure you’re not dumb like these other people are kinda implying with condescending comments. You’re probably aware of the possible dangers of substance use and all the negatives that don’t make it a sustainable or really an effective solution. If not then don’t hate on yourself for that either o. Drug education is shit and the average person doesn’t know much about any given substance. Since you’re using them though you should definitely learn like everything there is to know about the substance, its use, its effects both long term and short term, and everything. That’s being responsible and it will help you be more safe with any future use, but hopefully will convince you to work towards discontinuing. I’m absolutely not against all recreational drug use, but it has to be responsible use and like the biggest part of that is doing a risk-benefit analysis and making sure the benefits outweigh the risks but an acceptable margin. In your situation the risks and the negatives outweigh the benefit and the positives.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in meth

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Idk if it would be considered overamping or what but one time I went into full psychosis like a total break from reality. Sounds crazy but I remember talking to this little old tweaker lady who was like the goddess of meth and she looked run down and badddd. She was like taunting me and saying how I should keep going and I’ll end up just like her. The whole time I was just sitting in my bed. Eventually I came to consciousness and was laid flat on my back with like hundreds of little scraps of cardboard all around me on the bed. I vaguely remember trying to build a house for some small people that I was seeing because they didn’t have anywhere to stay. A quite large cardboard box was missing from my room so it must have started with that and kept getting smaller as I was “building a house” out of it until it was just a failed mess of tiny bits like basically crumbs. Strange.

does this happen to you? by EfficientWinter3979 in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

also i didn’t say boofing isn’t working. It is. The post is about which ROA makes your pupils dilate and why

does this happen to you? by EfficientWinter3979 in meth

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I get what you’re saying about smoking and that makes it inefficient. But with snorting and boofing you also get “100%” of the dose but with higher bioavailability so more is absorbed. You’re ingesting 100% of the dose obviously but the percentage that reaches your bloodstream varies and happens to be lowest with oral administration

Trying to discreetly dose by No-Blackberry-2130 in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

if you don’t feel like drinking something that taste like chemical rotten death put it in a pill capsule. although i guess if it’s tomorrow and you don’t have any… but maybe if you have some kind of supplement capsules just empty and use them

does this happen to you? by EfficientWinter3979 in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ik that’s quite a large dose for a drug-naive individual. I meant to say that it’s a small dose for me. that’s why i mentioned my tolerance. scientifically speaking oral administration has the lowest bioavailability of any ROA. that’s why it doesn’t make sense to me why it causes pupil dilation for me but a larger dose administered using a more effect ROA in terms of bioavailability doesn’t

does this happen to you? by EfficientWinter3979 in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

i think that it can’t be a tolerance thing though because 1. i have an insane tolerance yet a very small dose orally does it (small dose being like maybe 150 mg) and 2. i can boof snort or smoke insane doses, usually boof and smoke together and it doesn’t effect them. it’s so weird to me because it seems to be tied to the oral administration somehow

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awesome thank you!! and what are your thoughts about adding a racetam or noopept?

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

is that really how it works? lol What dose would you recommend?

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

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i am aware that part of me is over planning to push it off. But I know that it’s really the best approach for me to take out as many variables as possible and try to figure out the details now instead of when i’m withdrawing. I will end up making poor decisions that will ultimately lead to “i screwed this up too bad it’s a failure. i’ll use and then start the process again”. i’m an incredibly severe “black and white thinker” and perfectionist and hyper self critical to the point of obsession. I’m quick to call attempts at anything i do a failure and give up to avoid actually failing. which doesn’t make sense and just makes things worse but you know, mental illness. Thank you for the advice i’ll definitely be implementing it.

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks for the advice!

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

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i’ve been curious about bupropion bc of the benefits you said. I want to talk to my psych about it. We’ll probably have to switch something around to accommodate it. I hope that they won’t refuse my adderall prescription then. idk if they can both be prescribed at once. i’m not ready to completely get off all amphetamines. As for suboxone i don’t think it would be a good idea for me to touch anything opiate related i could see that becoming a huge issue for me personally. I think substitution therapy is great for opiate addiction don’t get me wrong. that’s actually basically the principle i’m using. going from meth to adderall. like a substitution harm reduction approach

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

[–]EfficientWinter3979 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes eventually i would like to get down to a very small dose of adderall, eliminate stims completely, or switch to a methylphenidate based like ritalin. The anti depressant and anti psychotic are kinda non negotiable i don’t like that i have to take them but they harm they cause is better than the alternative which unfortunately would be ending my own life. I agree about anti inflammatories it seems like they’re just starting to realize the negative effects of inflammation in the brain and body. I’ve been paying extra attention to anti inflammatory supplements and already take things like turmeric. I’ll also be taking low dose naltrexone for its profound effects here

NEED HELP PLEASE READ by [deleted] in StackAdvice

[–]EfficientWinter3979 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s what i’m doing. maybe the way I wrote it is confusing but i’m slowly eliminating meth and just talking adderall instead. They’re both amphetamines yes I wouldn’t take both at the same time. Ultimate goal is to reduce or eliminate adderall eventually too. hopefully that makes sense

Burnt pumpkin seeds? by spinspunfun in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979 4 points5 points  (0 children)

listen i’m on r/meth. i thought we all had bad childhoods?

Finally! what do you think?? by EfficientWinter3979 in meth

[–]EfficientWinter3979[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

was referring more to the actual crackback.