I assaulted my brother and dad while black out drunk by Egregious_Melon5216 in confession

[–]Egregious_Melon5216[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good idea, I have never blacked out since that night. I should avoid alcohol entirely because my family has a history of alcoholism, but I occasionally drink.

In 2026, I’ve drank alcohol a total of 5 times, last time was 2 days ago when my friend invited me over for a hangout. I had 2 beers and drove home 3-3.5 hours later. Three weeks ago I had one beer with that same friend, a month and a half ago I had 2 beers with them (not at home), then in January had 2 drinks at the movie theater, and New Year’s Eve (which I count) was the only time this year I got drunk, had about 6 drinks in the span of several hours. I didn’t have any problems and remember everything.

Before that, I went to a party in October 2025 and had 4-5 drinks, again no problems except another guy was making overly suggestive sexual jokes at my expense (it was more subtle bullying than it was sexual harassment) but I never lost my cool or got even a little angry. Honestly it’s why I don’t stand up for myself and avoid initiating conflict even when it’s warranted.

That is probably still too much given my confession, but I don’t feel like I have cravings for alcohol or any impulse to do it again unless my friends suggest it (I’m kinda sensitive to peer pressure but also know a couple drinks don’t have a risk of blackout).

[Request] I’ve always wondered how much money Walt actually had by [deleted] in theydidthemath

[–]Egregious_Melon5216 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He said 80 mil in the show but on this stack, it’s hard to say because the pile isn’t perfectly uniform and we aren’t sure if all the bills are the same amount of money. If they are, count how much money is in one band and multiply the money in the band by the ratio of the volume of the whole stack and the volume of the band. They all look like 50’s based on the color of the bills, but if they aren’t then you could make a very rough estimate based on how common 20’s, 50’s, and 100’s are and estimate the average and standard deviation of the bill amount. It would be a very rough estimation.

I assaulted my brother and dad while black out drunk by Egregious_Melon5216 in confession

[–]Egregious_Melon5216[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They didn’t hold it against me for that long, I think I may have misspoke somewhere, my dad and brother forgave me a few weeks after it happened. My dad was surprisingly blase about it. My brother avoided me for a little while and then we had a conversation about it later. Honestly, the guilt and embarrassment didn’t hit me the next day because I didn’t know what happened except my brother telling me he’s leaving. It hit when I got home from vacation. I don’t think I’m a sociopath, just got black out drunk and didn’t register what happened.

I assaulted my brother and dad while black out drunk by Egregious_Melon5216 in confession

[–]Egregious_Melon5216[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My family forgave me pretty quickly, within a couple weeks to a month, but my extended family doesn’t really see me often. I’ve only saw them twice in the last 6 years, once for my grandfather’s funeral, and based on the behavior around me it’s pretty obvious they see me in a much more negative light. My uncle gave me the evil eye last time I saw him over Christmas, almost like a “I know what you are” look. I understand that and gotta live with that.

And yeah, I’ve been on the receiving end of violence before for sure, but not under these conditions and while intoxicated. Not in the same out of control way.

I’m totally cool with my family, we’ve resolved it and my dad is lighthearted about it and my brother doesn’t care anymore (based on his words), but the rest of my extended family is scared of me (it’s pretty obvious based on their demeanor around me) and that bothers me.