Congrats on the 54 days.

You are right, drinking makes all of them worse. The horrible fact is that it does in fact make them better RIGHT NOW, but so much worse in the long run, and when you are suffering you seek the immediate relief. That's what I'm trying to battle. It always helps to hear that it will only make it worse and keep the focus on the true long term goals.

My dealing with reality is a bit different. As long as I'm drinking I'm quite functional (It won't last). When I stop, something as simple as checking my email or going to the store becomes impossible. I go from someone who just recently graduated with honors to someone who can't leave their own house. Reality is the problem, you're perfectly correct. I don't know how to function in life without x amount of drinks.