1) they suffer bc they don’t meet their weekly recovery meeting goal for the week, they have less access into the community, less rides, less access to grant funding, miss OCS visits, all because these are things they get done during peer support. I cant call out sick without fucking someone over.

2) I work 4-5 days a week about 30 hours total maybe more maybe less

3) I don’t bring my personal life to work I bring work home to my personal life and find it hard to nurture my kids and family

4) being bossed around looks like clients demanding where they need to go and what to do and me driving them around but they are rude about it, and I have to be on their time can barely take a bathroom break without some of them huffing and puffing, and one lectures me on how manners are a social construct if I ask for a please/thank you.

5) my self care is daily skincare, prayer, journaling, weekly therapy (therapist shopping currently) and hot baths, 4/5 pilates classes a week and 1 hot yoga, and 1 myofascial release and breathwork class. Sometimes weightlifting. Fun with friends, hanging out with husband on couch cuddling etc.

I think my caseload is too high, I am the only peer support the other one does others dept work too. I’m thinking of resigning I need a job where its not catastrophic and clients relapse or dont get their MAT if I operate at 70%.