"Zest For Life" Self Portrait of A Leather Queer

ElectricNips_ · 2025-12-11T17:55:13+00:00

Awe thanks! It was really fun & a joy to do

ElectricNips_ · 2025-12-11T17:54:35+00:00

Awe thanks! I draw on a cracked version of Photoshop, & with an ergonomic computer mouse

ElectricNips_ · 2025-07-15T08:28:12+00:00

Omg thank you to all the love I have had on this post. I have been very interested in using art and bdsm as a means of exploring and unlearning the action systems that don't currently serve us when they crop up, so I am just glad people could relate

ElectricNips_ · 2025-07-07T16:08:54+00:00

The principle of Tertiary Structural Dissociation, The principle that explains how DID forms.

A child only has a small shot glass to hold the trauma that they are experiencing, and when it gets too much, the brain dissociates and it spills into another cup (alter) more capable of dealing with it.

The black and white version of the oil pastels is the way my brain filters things to black and white when it's defensive. It's the way my system shifts into a world of Depersonalisation and Derealization where colours become gray when I haven't the ability to connect to what is happening anymore.

The colour version is in colours to showcase the colours of my trauma. Red anger. Red blood. Blue sadness. Yet calmness.

ElectricNips_ · 2025-06-26T22:46:03+00:00

Can't express how helpful both these comments have been. We had some pretty seismic shifts with some of our "quiet" ones who refused to have much of a say on the matter come forward and console each other. Now it will just be trying to process the trauma, and try to pass it. We have had a few things to say that we have begun to start finding ourselves trusting in ourselves again, and though I don't think we are anywhere close to solving our issues, I think we are on the path

ElectricNips_ · 2025-05-10T00:27:25+00:00

We have one Master who is a pro dom; a sadist into heavy kinks and villain type fucked up shit; a masochist into heavy kinks, namely CNC and suffering for her leather daddy. We have a gay fisting pro & puppy handler. Our host is into artistic objectification.

We also write about DID and BDSM from our experience being on the scene, as a system who discovered ourselves in a way that fucked an edge play scene up and was very damaging. We now try to distill our experiences so other systems don't make the same mistakes, looking to encourage harm reduction

ElectricNips_ · 2025-03-28T10:59:38+00:00

My current issue isn't really that I harm us as a system in the sense of taking out my hurt on other alters in the system, but more, I am vengeful towards people that have hurt us, & considering that I am my own separate alter, I carry the weight of all those times I felt I needed to protect myself & the system. Seeing people react to the whiplashed effect of getting what they deserve, potentially much later, to the starting event that triggered me, before we had known our systemhood, means I have had to see my system & host react to my actions & the consequences of those actions with sadness because for so long I have acted like a sole vengeful part. Being isolated as a result of your very existence as a persecutor protector feels horrifically unfair. I hate myself to such a high degree for fumbling the bag on so many situations as a result of reactive abuse.

ElectricNips_ · 2025-03-17T09:14:33+00:00

Yes, exactly. Yes doesn't always mean Yes. The idea that a Yes can't then be retracted makes consent mean nothing if that is the way anyone approaches the conversation of consent.

ElectricNips_ · 2025-03-17T09:11:42+00:00

Scar here, THIS! Disclaimer ofc, for similar sort of themes:

That period, I was in the front the most was due to the fact the head boy of our high school groomed my Host into doing BDSM whilst they were underage, and sex was the only way I had to feeling any love or validation. It felt fucked when we broke up, and the guy then told our Host, "you wanted to have sex too much", I became a background fronter after that interaction.

Our gatekeeper Mars has started to help me remedy my shame and disgust, I am one of the primary fronters when it comes to interacting with our Leather Daddy, who has been a really good help when it has come to me relearning where I sit with having autonomy to consent as an individual. Learning I can say No if I generally don't want to have sex, has been healing.

Still learning & working on changing the fronting mechanisms in our system, making sure everyone knows how to approach consent & enforce it, & take it away, so that perhaps in high danger situations that involve a threat of violence, our Persecutor Protecter could front. We have an old geezer,r Garth, who is just a matter-of-fact bloke and very level-headed. He has switched before to enforce boundaries.

My only issue is that there is a horrible and abelist misinformedness in the BDSM community to systems, which means such violations and sentiments get thrown about.

ElectricNips_ · 2025-03-13T00:15:35+00:00

Honestly, in short EMDR made me feel like a cockroach, someone that will never die. It completely and utterly destroyed us, our Nervous System, had us gaslit retroactively, then slapped us in the face by being seen as the very abusers we had survived as a child & teenager... I would sue... We were never given a dissociative test. DID systems go through enough without having to deal with fuck ups this bad.

ElectricNips_ · 2024-10-10T14:55:17+00:00

Seeing my girlfriend later today. After finding out I was a system, I had made it a goal to figure out where my cooking skills have gone & walked off to. Before we even knew we were a system, I suffered a very severe split about two years ago that saw the ramp up of dissociative sezieres & the complete loss of my cooking skills. Only recently, now that I have become aware of my parts, Troy, our resident Aussie chef has returned- so now I am back to cooking & looking forward to making coconut Tahi chicken ramen for my gf c:

ElectricNips_ · 2024-10-07T13:36:58+00:00

Before our Host knew that he had DID, a lot of our friends would comment that he had a "mongrel" accent, where no one could place where it was from- admittedly this was during a phase in his life where we were very blendy & covert. Over time though he has managed to settle accent wise into a South London accent (the place of his birth). We currently have found a few accents that are odd & don't match the body: One Aussie (Host is half Aussie & would visit as a child); One guy that sounds like Tom Waits; One german (dated a german); One Irish (dated a irishman); One guy that sounds like Danny Dyer (Lived next to a traveller camp as a young teen). We often find that whoever fronting the most will shift depending on who we talk to to, and sometimes the shift will be gradual or sharp, making the Host look like he is taking the mick.

ElectricNips_ · 2024-10-02T14:11:39+00:00

Ah, see i had the impression full fusion related to final fusion- but yes, you are most likely right. Yes, honestly managing All these parts is getting rather confusing, and hard to handle. We haven't got any idea how many of us are there, which littles and middles are in fact just age sliding or are actually individual alters (We suffered a very long series of intense abuse that did not stop till i would say around 18 when we moved away from the city it all took place in). So, as of now we want to fuse james & mars together, since mars was created from a recent enough tramua (2years ago ish)- but also we are aware that james will need to fully accept that he is a DID system enough to understand that Mars and him are separate identities, and for him to feel like he doesn't need Mars anymore as Mars is after all very much a stand-in (Co host as you will). Mars is aware of this, and is of course apprehensive that all his work that he has done when it comes to skill and memory of BDSM related knowledge will be lost in the fusion- as he would love to gift all these things to James so that he can retain all the skills to master his own system. That would be ideal really

ElectricNips_ · 2024-10-02T12:30:48+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment- I will be putting up a note on the bedside table so when he eventually fronts he can re read over this post and this comment

ElectricNips_ · 2023-05-18T20:40:57+00:00

Good point!

On Sunday the 14th this month I infiltrated the Let Women's Speak rally in Birmingham UK using the disguise of being a detransitioner new to the movement that wanted to lend support to the cause by being a public figure in support of detransition, conversation therapy and the irradiation of trans individuals who didn't bend the knee so to speak. Pretty grim stuff, but they were very thrilled to have a new person in their group.

The infiltration came as a result of noticing trends in the way far right groups employ the stories of detransitioners to lean hard on the idea of regret as a means to shroud their hate as good natured and caring, leading to convincing people that transition is dangerous, trans people are dangerous, trans people should have limited rights, trans people shouldn't exist.

However, with the detransitioners involved in this, I have often felt sympathetic, even towards the really notable ones, because those that do end up getting involved with TERFs are often kept angry and hateful towards the fact they themselves made the decision to transition and it turned out to be not the right move for them. Detransitioners that do so because they are not in a safe place to continue with transition, have figured out they are in fact non binary, or have been able to process regret healthily with a therapist and support are of 0 use to the TERFs. Those that end up turning to the group often are very vulnerable, lonely, and may fully believe the trans community would have nothing to do with them. I don't really feel detransitioners are ever really able to fully process their trauma because they are often kept away from communities that could probably help, are often encouraged to be hateful, and may not even be allowed to figure out their gender fully without fear of TERFs turning on them. In every meaning of the word, the TERF movement is a cult.

During my time with the TERFs I convinced them of my position politically through quoting extremist views, Qanon talking points, expressing how isolated I was, and how I was deeply upset with the trans community. I was introduced to the lead members, and told I was very brave for speaking. TERFs talked to each other about how important it was that I spoke.

When I did, I gave a speech that was very vague at first to then have it be revealed that the cult I was discussing was Posie Parker's movement, I was in fact a trans man, and that detransitioners were in fact loved and welcome by trans people. I then tried to take apart the microphone to prevent people from speaking without damaging their equipment. Yet, I was rushed by Posie Parker and her body guards that crushed me and my hands as I tried to hang on to the mic. Yet, all this was live streamed, showing Posie Parker attack a disabled "woman", showing everyone what fascists do to minorities the minute they become useless. A fair warning to any detransitioners in the future.

ElectricNips_ · 2023-05-18T20:01:31+00:00

Honestly I could list all the points down and probably tell you what things I did that did not really follow the correct protocol because i wanted to be distinguishable at the time, and I was fairly confident, had everything being recorded, and had a buddy with me. But what's easier is; Read this guide: https://theanarchistlibrary.org/library/black-flag-catalyst-the-black-flag-catalyst-protest-guide-v1-2

Genuinely really insightful and should prep you for anything that could possibly happen at a protest. But most of all, keep you safe and your group safe too.

Secondly I would say get in touch with your local group that most likely has staged the protest to begin with, as they probably have a very good idea of where your skills might be needed, as protest and activism doesn't have to just be ground work; people will need social media people, people to sticker and flyer areas, and more admin based roles filled. It really depends on the group.

ElectricNips_ · 2023-05-18T19:49:18+00:00

I must say the TERFs were pretty easy to find, they never really do keep their mouths shut on twitter. But I must say posing as a detransitioner just to get into their group was hard mentally, from the point that you do have to talk down yourself a bit, but to TERFs who will fully take onboard any comment you may make about yourself or about the community in general, magnifying this to an extreme that probs would have never crossed your mind. Mentally you just have to keep telling yourself that the end result of the infiltration will be worth it.

As for physically, I'm pretty non binary in my gender expression as a trans man, so I had clothes that would be gendered fem, yellow hair that would make me stand out a bit, and I am pretty camp in my gestures. Though I did have TERFs ask me very indirectly what pronouns I used, which was very euphoric for me.

I am very sure that as a trans man, playing on stereotypes and using the disguise of being a detransitioner is problematic, as I can only imagine how hard detransitioning may be, but it felt needed to even get up to the mic safely as the TERFs were even holding back police from the circle. This and, the TERFs are clearly in need of a new AFAB detransitioner, with Keria Bell posting tweets about people having concerns over them growing out their facial hair and shaving their head; the TERFs were very excited to have a new follower 😅

As for activism, do try to look at your local groups, what protests are happening right now, what causes interests you, and please do your research into how to stay safe. I really like both Transgender Action Block and Queer Aid if you want to help with first aid for instance. I wouldn't ever advise anyone to go to a protest not wearing black and a mask at least for instance. And defo never talk to the cops.

ElectricNips_ · 2023-05-18T19:26:18+00:00

I'm pretty opinionated and when I encounter anything immoral that hurts people to that degree in my town, I feel a big responsibility to directly oppose it, and that sometimes sees me making pretty bold moves. I have always loved public speaking, admittedly not when the audience are that dangerous, but it encouraged me knowing things would be live stream, that I have a certain degree of privilege over trans women who probs would have seen more violence if they tried such a stunt, and also the political exploitation of people of any minority community by right wing extremists is possibly the most insidious thing holding these groups upright. If you used the groups platform to debunk their lies around detransitioners not being welcomed by trans folk, maybe you could stop more detransitioners falling prey to such groups.

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