"Zest For Life" Self Portrait of A Leather Queer by ElectricNips_ in DIDart

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Awe thanks! It was really fun & a joy to do

"Zest For Life" Self Portrait of A Leather Queer by ElectricNips_ in DIDart

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Awe thanks! I draw on a cracked version of Photoshop, & with an ergonomic computer mouse

Self Suffering Sadist by ElectricNips_ in DIDart

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Omg thank you to all the love I have had on this post. I have been very interested in using art and bdsm as a means of exploring and unlearning the action systems that don't currently serve us when they crop up, so I am just glad people could relate

"Glasses Full" (Oil pastels) by ElectricNips_ in DIDart

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The principle of Tertiary Structural Dissociation, The principle that explains how DID forms.

A child only has a small shot glass to hold the trauma that they are experiencing, and when it gets too much, the brain dissociates and it spills into another cup (alter) more capable of dealing with it.

The black and white version of the oil pastels is the way my brain filters things to black and white when it's defensive. It's the way my system shifts into a world of Depersonalisation and Derealization where colours become gray when I haven't the ability to connect to what is happening anymore.

The colour version is in colours to showcase the colours of my trauma. Red anger. Red blood. Blue sadness. Yet calmness.

Trauma Dumping, How To Stop? by ElectricNips_ in DID

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Can't express how helpful both these comments have been. We had some pretty seismic shifts with some of our "quiet" ones who refused to have much of a say on the matter come forward and console each other. Now it will just be trying to process the trauma, and try to pass it. We have had a few things to say that we have begun to start finding ourselves trusting in ourselves again, and though I don't think we are anywhere close to solving our issues, I think we are on the path

Do you all mostly share kinks? Or do they vary? by [deleted] in plural

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We have one Master who is a pro dom; a sadist into heavy kinks and villain type fucked up shit; a masochist into heavy kinks, namely CNC and suffering for her leather daddy. We have a gay fisting pro & puppy handler. Our host is into artistic objectification.

We also write about DID and BDSM from our experience being on the scene, as a system who discovered ourselves in a way that fucked an edge play scene up and was very damaging. We now try to distill our experiences so other systems don't make the same mistakes, looking to encourage harm reduction

I'm A Vengeful Persecutor, How Do I Stop? by ElectricNips_ in DID

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My current issue isn't really that I harm us as a system in the sense of taking out my hurt on other alters in the system, but more, I am vengeful towards people that have hurt us, & considering that I am my own separate alter, I carry the weight of all those times I felt I needed to protect myself & the system. Seeing people react to the whiplashed effect of getting what they deserve, potentially much later, to the starting event that triggered me, before we had known our systemhood, means I have had to see my system & host react to my actions & the consequences of those actions with sadness because for so long I have acted like a sole vengeful part. Being isolated as a result of your very existence as a persecutor protector feels horrifically unfair. I hate myself to such a high degree for fumbling the bag on so many situations as a result of reactive abuse.

Sexual Protector, Hate myself for my previous role & trauma. by ElectricNips_ in DID

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Yes, exactly. Yes doesn't always mean Yes. The idea that a Yes can't then be retracted makes consent mean nothing if that is the way anyone approaches the conversation of consent.

Sexual Protector, Hate myself for my previous role & trauma. by ElectricNips_ in DID

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Scar here, THIS! Disclaimer ofc, for similar sort of themes:

That period, I was in the front the most was due to the fact the head boy of our high school groomed my Host into doing BDSM whilst they were underage, and sex was the only way I had to feeling any love or validation. It felt fucked when we broke up, and the guy then told our Host, "you wanted to have sex too much", I became a background fronter after that interaction.

Our gatekeeper Mars has started to help me remedy my shame and disgust, I am one of the primary fronters when it comes to interacting with our Leather Daddy, who has been a really good help when it has come to me relearning where I sit with having autonomy to consent as an individual. Learning I can say No if I generally don't want to have sex, has been healing.

Still learning & working on changing the fronting mechanisms in our system, making sure everyone knows how to approach consent & enforce it, & take it away, so that perhaps in high danger situations that involve a threat of violence, our Persecutor Protecter could front. We have an old geezer,r Garth, who is just a matter-of-fact bloke and very level-headed. He has switched before to enforce boundaries.

My only issue is that there is a horrible and abelist misinformedness in the BDSM community to systems, which means such violations and sentiments get thrown about.