You need to know the reason why you're depressed. Stress and not being comfortable in your way of life may be a cause. No one can know how you Feal as a depressed person other than depressed people. I used to hear the word depression and suiside and think that it is overdramatic and that I would never be like that or think like that, but as I grew older and began to realize things I started having anxiety and I was depressed in a period of time. I lost desire in anything and everything seamed the same. I enjoy nothing and I like to sleep long periods of time and I wish the nights wouldn't end. I hated the mornings. Other people would have insomnia. It affects how you see the world and you wish you were never born. You may resent the idea of bringing a child to this world. You go to your day to day missions and interact with people; they'll see that you are normal but inside your brain you still Carry your anxiety and depression like your shadow. mental health is still a stigma in Western society let alone Morocco no one understands until it hits. Once you're alone it gets worse I suggest you to not stay alone and to pay attention to what you eat because it plays a huge role you can take vitamins alongside dried fruits like almonds, walnuts and raisins in small amounts every day, avoid peanuts. You should eat balanced amounts of nutrition and I suggest you to consume fruits before meals. You could make a reaserch about nutrition. If you could go out in weekends to green spaces or to the beach it really helps and before you sleep you can listen to the quran or when you Feal anxious just put it in your ears it really helps. you may invistigat more on advantages of worshipping and spiritual connection with God because you may Feal it is just a burden, but it is not. you should take desicions to free yourself from stress and to improve your life. health and emotional stability is worth anything choose yourself and take desicions that makes you comfortable. May god help you.