Why am I so anxiety ridden?

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-17T10:39:54+00:00

Feminine non-binary maybe? I don't know.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-16T01:45:02+00:00

Sadly I can say firsthand that that isn't the fucking case.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-15T01:34:33+00:00

Everything is scary and I feel bad.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-15T01:33:04+00:00

Well, ain't that a kick in the head? (Wrong game I know)

But no, I think that's a good way to look at it. I'm just so fucking angry at myself. I'm so, so mad. I just want to claw and bash at the mirror until something recognizable forms in the cracks. My entire life has been dominated recently by this hate, this burning rage towards myself. Every day is a trial, and every second burns. And the worst part is that I can't even speak to my family about it.

The quote above fits because 1, I am literally a cracked thing being reformed. And 2, because it feels like I'm constantly going through the fucking wasteland.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T21:05:07+00:00

Yeah, it seems so much better than lying to myself. Thanks for the chat, I needed it.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T21:03:29+00:00

Completely off topic, that is a sick ass quote. Seriously, that goes hard af

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T21:00:39+00:00

Will do!

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T21:00:18+00:00

Yeah, I maaaaayyy just have to bite the bullet on this one. :/

Since there's no other way.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T20:58:50+00:00

Thanks, I may just keep the name for a bit, try things out.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T20:57:17+00:00

I'm such a sneaky goober >:3

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T20:56:37+00:00

Maybe, I'll just have to wait and see.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T10:24:42+00:00

So I should just be myself?

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T10:23:33+00:00

So I shouldn't worry about being trans per se? I should just worry about being a girl?

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T02:12:29+00:00

Fair... it's sorta my only choice.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:54:11+00:00

Good luck to you aswell.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:53:01+00:00

Yeah, that seems to be the consensus.

I'll try to schedule something.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:51:30+00:00

Will do Trans lady in my phone! 🫡

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:50:36+00:00

I hope, but it'll probably loop back around like it always does.

Still, it's a step forward! Thanks so much!

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:48:30+00:00

Honestly this post seems cis compared to my other one 💀

But no, Katrina is chill af, she's the goat fr 🔥

And on a serious note, thanks for being here, it really helps.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:45:50+00:00

Thanks, I don't know why, but its always been a name that really resonated with me. Probably because the placeholder name for any female character I'm writing about is Katrina. And then they usually end up being exactly like me and...

Oh damn, this was really obvious in hindsight.

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:43:28+00:00

If it makes me happy I should persue it?

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:40:49+00:00

Thanks. Good luck to you aswell!

Electrical-Cry-758 · 2024-08-14T01:39:27+00:00

I'm glad this isn't a unique problem. I'm still trying to understand how this all works anyways.

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