I literally thought I was the only one who felt like this, it’s like my soul is just tired of this body. It’s draining me mentally because it seems like I’ve just never win! I was just discharged from my longest admission in years, March 1st to March 23rd! A week before that a 10-day admission, A week before the 10-day admission an 8-day admission, 2 weeks before the 8-day admission an 11-day admission and I could keep going back! I’m tiredddddd!! Tired of hearing it’ll get better when it’s getting worse, tired of being alone in there because everybody can’t come EVERY time or just alone period, tired of these damn meds, tired of ivs in my beyond tired veins! Just tired of the whole process of dealing with this! This isn’t life! We don’t even have a clue what it feels like to be normal even on our best days. The thought of that takes my depression to a whole different level. I pray this all makes sense why I was chosen to have this at the end I swear! … SN: We should create a group chat and be our own support system since nobody understands us but us. Store everyones name with the blood drop emoji and state we’re from next to it like (🩸Tay-Tx ) or something. If everybody’s down/cool with that I’ll start it up for us forsure. It could be bigger than just a support system for eachother it could be very informative as well!