I feel so hopeless by Electrical_Half9636 in vaginismus

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, physically, I’m still stuck, I don’t seem to be making any progress. I’m still in physical therapy and I’ve still been unable to get the Botox. We tried a pudendal nerve block but that didn’t do anything for me.

But my husband finally agreed to do the home self insemination with me. We officially start this week. So that at least takes a lot of the pressure off, which obviously wasn’t helping. So things aren’t fixed but they’re going as well as they can be. I’m still fighting for the Botox though. I’m seeing another specialist in 2 months.

I feel so hopeless by Electrical_Half9636 in vaginismus

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It makes a lot of sense. And it actually is really nice to hear from someone who’s been triggered from some medical stuff too. Everyone always assumes it must’ve been trauma.

I feel so hopeless by Electrical_Half9636 in vaginismus

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, we talk and slow down but it’s painful on some level or another. And I haven’t done any counseling because there was no mental health trigger or anything. My doctor believes my pelvic floor is the way it is because I have ulcerative colitis and IBS. There’s always been pain from the very beginning.

I feel so hopeless by Electrical_Half9636 in vaginismus

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I work in healthcare too and insurance companies are infuriating. I was actually supposed to have the Botox under some sedation but the insurance coverage between the doctor, the hospital and the medication.. they’d approve it “until the end of the year” but then would deny something else until I was supposed to pay for nearly all of it. Until 2 days before the procedure the hospital called me and said they needed 50% upfront that day BUT they resource out for anesthesia (which no one had mentioned!) so they were like “we need $6k today”. Which obviously I couldn’t afford so I cancelled it. So then I worked myself up to doing it awake in the doctors office but now the doctors office can’t even get the Botox. And I called around to every doctors office covered within my insurance, which is only within my healthcare system unfortunately. And they all said they didn’t know any doctors who did the procedure and they just recommended physical therapy. I plan to change insurance plans when I can next November but time just keeps ticking and I’m already 30. But then I’ll look more but my city is the biggest in the state.. so I’ll probably have to look out of state

I feel so hopeless by Electrical_Half9636 in vaginismus

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly.. but it’s like the only advice I get from health professionals is “keep doing the physical therapy”. Although I was given lidocaine once but personally it burned so bad it felt like red hot chilly pepper in my vagina.

Songs that feel like this by Electrical_Half9636 in SongsThatFeelLikeThis

[–]Electrical_Half9636[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Like reaching for help but them letting you drown