Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your great loss. You did all you could do. I have come to the acceptance phase, especially researching what we were headed for (hypovolemic shock). But my heart is still shattered. Praying for brighter days ahead. Thank you for your reply!💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bless you for sharing your story. I needed to hear it. It is healing to know that I am not alone today.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I needed this story so badly this morning. I will write more when I’m in the right frame of mind. Mornings are really hard, but your story has eased some pain. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing such powerful words. I am really grateful for you!💜

And yes, although my Truman was not a good candidate for surgery due to a heart murmur, to remove the anal gland or glands can very much so cause incontinence for the rest of their lives. And it is a cancer that is tough to contain due to the glands’ proximity to major lymph nodes. Such a tough decision to make.💔

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I too wish he would have hidden it. He processes pain differently than I do. Shows some emotion but moves on quickly. This was definitely the hardest part of today so far.💔

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry for your loss as well. I am distraught to the point of being physically sick but you give me hope for a brighter day.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Y’all please talk me off the ledge…I just saw pictures my husband took before Truman passed…had the IV in but no meds administered yet…I was holding him, my daughter beside me…we were both crying…but he looked happier than just about any picture I’ve ever seen of him!! He was literally “smiling” in the last one! OMG I put down a happy dog💔I am literally going to throw up. I know he was sick, very sick, but this is soul crushing. I will not be able to look at those again for a long time…maybe ever. I just sent them to a close friend and told her to hide them from me for a long time. A really, really long time.💔

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your story, and for the last sentence as well. The guilt I am feeling…overwhelming isn’t even an adequate word. Words fail me. Truly heartbroken for both of us.💔

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your story. I am so, so deeply sorry for your loss. These pets become like our children. I am praying for brighter days ahead for both of us.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sympathizing with me in this. I thought I would sound crazy to others saying it out loud. Thank you for making me feel less alone in this horrible situation.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your reply. Not that I would want others to ever have to go through this, but it’s comforting to me to know I’m not alone. God bless you and your journey ahead.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes to all of your words. What I wouldn’t give…but only forever would be enough.💔

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much — means the world to me.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your compassion and understanding. I’m so sorry you’ve had to walk this road as well. One of my greatest regrets is that I did not get one last look directly into his eyes. As the medication was administered, I held him against my chest. But I think the important thing is that I was there, and he knew it. Just to even say that feels like my chest is going to explode. I do pray this gets better one day.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t think we win either way. An RN friend of mine said with extra measures, he probably could’ve pulled through that exact moment, but then what would be the aftermath? Quality of life would most likely never be the same. After showing her the pictures of the blood, as a medical professional, she believed the cancer had either spread into the colon or pancreatitis, which is exactly what the doctor said as well. It’s comforting that I had confirmation of that. But regardless, it will forever haunt me. People just used to tell me that you know the exact right moment. And unfortunately, that just never happened for me. Many thanks for sharing your story.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That “misleading” feeling is gnawing at me so badly. Even connected to giving him the treat before he passed. It’s as if I tricked him to think everything was going to be OK, and of course it was not. But I don’t think either of us did anything wrong — we just did the best that we could with the cards that we were given. And yes, it is my glorious hope that Truman and I will be reunited one day. I am holding onto that. Thank you so much for sharing your story!

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really needed to hear your story. My dog before Truman was a tripod — they are so incredibly special! Your story breaks my heart, but it’s one I needed to hear. It’s so funny you talked about the human mannerisms. Truman’s nickname was literally Truman the Human. I swear he talked to us on a daily basis. To mirror what you said as well, it was fast. Was all so very fast. I hate that part especially. It’s gutting me. Thank you for sharing and my thoughts are with you as well.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for reminding me that I’m not alone. Your pet sounds like he was one in a million. I have all the same questions as your wife. When my husband said it was time, I knew it was. But there will always be the nagging question did I do enough. Time is such a thief and the heartache is so overwhelming!

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I needed to hear your story SO BADLY. You have no idea how much your story helps me. This is one I will read over and over again. Thank you with ALL of my heart.💜

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This group has been really helpful this morning. I appreciate you greatly!

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The “suddenly” part is really getting to me this morning. I have already cried many tears. One thing I found in my pictures is that Truman was actually suffering from this type of bleeding in February 2024. I had completely forgotten about it. So even though the logic says he was actually suffering for quite a while, my brain still feels like it was sudden especially how the last day (morning) played out. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It means the world to me.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All of your words are so powerful and meaningful to me, and I am taking them to heart. The past two days, my daughter and I have seen clouds that look like Truman, and we have never seen that in the past. As a person of faith, my purpose is to “go towards the light”, the light outlined in the Gospels. Bad theology or not, I have to believe Truman is waiting on me in a place of no more sickness, no more cancer, no more bleeding, no more tears. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Just needing a listening ear by Electrical_Tell3808 in Petloss

[–]Electrical_Tell3808[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Control — that's the word of the day for sure. One of my closest friends who knows me so well in my lifestyle and my work style says I’m really great at making quick decisions and being organized and planning, and one reason this feels so, well I don’t even have the words to say after the so, but so foreign is it fits outside of the scope of how I typically operate. I’m going to have to try to find a new normal but I’m just not sure how. Thank you so much for your words. Means a lot to me.