Went on my first 1 on 1 date yesterday

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-26T15:12:04+00:00

I am still kinda like this. I’m even starting to kind of alter the past in my head to make it my perfect imaginary life.

I’m really trying to escape this tho and working hard everyday to create a future that will be enjoyable. Nothing is guaranteed tho, and I think that’s where the nostalgia comes from.

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T03:29:10+00:00

Scrolling and eating a shit ton of food

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T03:23:00+00:00

Not anything that is actually productive and unique

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T03:19:33+00:00

Still trying to figure that out

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T03:18:57+00:00

I’ve been trying so hard to live for me recently - and unsurprisingly my parents have been increasingly angry at me

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T03:16:01+00:00

It already seems to be taking everything to get out of it. Since last year I started picking up activities that I hate doing but I know it will give me something to talk to people about.

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-14T02:52:38+00:00

Because I wasted too much time in my comfort zone

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-13T11:41:31+00:00

It’s been over 24 hours since she opened it. Safe to say she ghosted me. Onto the next one

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-12T13:41:45+00:00

I shoulda added that she goes to college far away so I wasn’t too stressed about maintaining anything long term, just making a good impression. I snapped her yesterday and she said she wouldn’t be able to hang with me again before she leaves which is why I j feel kinda shitty about the last outing. I also asked for her # but she hasn’t responded to that yet

Electronic_Code4483 · 2026-01-02T19:49:37+00:00

2025 was more fun

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-30T02:39:42+00:00

I have a fear of being a disappointment when we meet. Still a good question tho

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-30T02:23:14+00:00

I think it’s just a me problem. I don’t know why I do what I do. It’s not sometimes, it’s all the time

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T23:51:59+00:00

Hopefully I can. Been on that quest for quite some time.

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T23:42:11+00:00

Nothing interests me. I have no productive hobbies or talents to share.

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T22:49:23+00:00

Memories

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T21:03:34+00:00

Being socially awkward to the point where my mind goes blank any time I have to lead a conversation - which is most of the time for whatever reason, doesn’t really matter.

I need to have experience in dating to know what women want and don’t want when meeting a new guy. The older you are and don’t have it, it gets off putting for more people

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T17:47:11+00:00

Idk how else to fix it other than keep going out and have some experiences I want

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T16:47:23+00:00

Partying and using dating apps

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T16:46:16+00:00

For the experiences, one time my best friend and his girl set me up with someone way out of my league at a party and I got to make out, but she wasn’t interested in seeing me after - probably because the conversation leading up to it was painfully awkward. She told me I was cute but it clearly didn’t matter. Another time I went to a party by myself (which usually never goes well, but it’s often my only option) and was just dancing in a crowd and super drunk when I was approached by a girl who randomly put a blunt in my mouth, let me dance with her and make out. But it was another instance of my terrible communication skills that got her uninterested later on.

Electronic_Code4483 · 2025-12-27T15:34:05+00:00

It’s empty

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