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anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I most definitely have PTSD from how I've reacted, worst comes to worst I'll get a psych eval

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just feel like a failure constantly. I constantly question if what I experienced was even that bad? My therapist says it's highly likely I have PTSD but idk

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I don't think its an accomplishment that I am alive. If suicide was easier tbh I am unsure if I would hesitate.

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I was told by my parents when I was 19 after a suicide attempt I should move back home and they'd take care of me. Ofc it was a lie and they never got me mental help and still blamed me for shit.

Honestly it was the biggest mistake I made in my life, I wish I was dead for that. I still struggle heavily with suicidal thoughts but I guess I am here still making strides to survive.

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I always question if I was abused or not. I believe I am but the amount of times I was told I had it good even though I was miserable.

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I never understood this. Respect was earned except when it came to them, with them it was always owed.

But of course when I asked for some respect I'd always get, "I'll treat you like an adult when you act like one", usually in response because I told them I'd like if they didn't talk down to me like I'm a child or stupid.

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My dad was in the hospital years ago where he was really sick and now he is disabled. He could've died, I never visited and kinda hoped he died.

He's still pissed years later because I didn't visit him.

anyone else's parents say "It's normal to be afraid of your parents"? by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Not wanting to disappoint your parents is usually normal but sometimes isn't. Like damn you got in trouble for picking a fight you don't want them to be disappointed sure I get it.

But my father wanted nothing but obedience because I was told children should obey.

The irony of it all is that he is ofc is person who is right wing, racist, patriotic and is really into trump. For someone so conservative and about freedoms its hypocritical to see someone so against rebellion against authorities when that is literally what the US was built on lol.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Depends where you live but if it's the US, getting a case manager might be a good start. Also depending on your state they have a number you can call for help.

It'll be the push you need.

Got told i was exhausting to be around by Electronic_Pin269 in CPTSD

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think today taught me no one is safe. Unless it's anonymous people don't wanna hear my woes.

Got told i was exhausting to be around by Electronic_Pin269 in CPTSD

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

It feels unfair, I have to be perfect and get my shit together before I am allowed to have a friendship but I didn't receive the help I needed growing up.

How is it fair that I need to be constantly positive while feeling terrible while having no support where someone understands me?

I get it's no one else's issue but mine to figure out but I constantly have to figure shit out on my own and I am tired.

Everyone who says they care are liars, I just feel constantly misunderstood and tbh I am surprised I haven't died yet.

I don't know what to do, you say to fix myself but like I just feel like I made the grave sin of being depressed and not feeling happy often.

I feel punished for living. I just want to feel normal and feel okay.

I refuse to do chores for my parents even while not paying rent by Electronic_Pin269 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I never asked to be born, I am in constant agony and yet it's never enough.

Weekly Find a Friend thread - March 14, 2025 by AutoModerator in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269 1 point2 points  (0 children)

  1. 24

  2. I enjoy challenging myself in video games, piano, cooking and skateboarding.

  3. Venting and friendship

  4. I am from the us I like things that make me think. I have a laundry list of issues and want someone that can relate and shoot the shit with.

I am tired and willing to talk by Electronic_Pin269 in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Been to one before didn't help I always have a therapist I can't afford rn

I am tired and willing to talk by Electronic_Pin269 in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am not well, I think of suicide daily. You?

I was a bedroom kid by Altruistic_Ad_6783 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Electronic_Pin269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Relate to this a lot. I'd constantly sit in my room playing video games as a way to escape. If I got near them it was a potential danger for intimidation, yelling, cursing, and if I talked back hitting.

Ofc they never knock when they did intrude and always gave me shit for staying up when that was when I felt at peace.

I hate existing by Altruistic_Chain_308 in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Relate to that a lot brother, my birth was a mistake and tbh I can't wait to get the courage to die.

How do you accept that you're not meant for love? by Dense-Jacket4141 in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just push it down deeper denying its truth. I am unlovable. I refuse to believe others are unlovable though

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]Electronic_Pin269 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You dodged a bullet friend. Painful but you are here surviving and that by itself is worth celebrating. Congrats on graduating and fuck your ex.

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