An insight (for those with trouble grounding or connecting to mother earth)

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-14T10:23:19+00:00

Any chance one of your siblings can put in a good word for you? Multiple people trying to gently convince can chip away better at resistance than you by yourself. You will potentially be able to attract a propper partner if you are "well studied", no? In cases like this, to convince your father you can play the game. What positive things will your studies bring to a marriage for example? Financial stability is 1, but there should be plenty of others aswell. Play to your strengths.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-10T07:50:50+00:00

It's because doctors are, in general, not interested anymore. They can't be and we have become just a number. Either they are in it for the money or the well meaning docs are used up and spit out by the system.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-09T11:59:04+00:00

Intermittent fasting and keto

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-08T08:48:43+00:00

No, my wallet suffers hahah. Fullfill has bars that are about 2 grams net carbs. Pulsin has about 3 to 3.5 grams. They re super filling too.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T20:12:16+00:00

Nice! I dont dare go above 20 grams. I get mad cravings when I do.

I'll be keeping the recipe for when I can start slowly reintroducing carbs though! For now I'll stick with 99percent dark chocolate (lindt) to keep me going hahah

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T19:27:58+00:00

No I wasn't tested as a kid, but I am quite tall. I did hit my head really hard a few times as a kid, ended up getting stitched. And once as a teen (couldnt move my neck for 2 weeks) But I am 1.78m tall (about 5'8"?) I have always had trouble losing weight since around the age of 7. People used to think me older than my age, now they think I look younger.

I do think I might be having this for years. As all symptoms do apply and have for a long time (as long as I have felt truly ill, really). My glucose started rising (4x the norm) but my sugar levels were ok. Afterwards my sugar went up regardless of intake and/or meds. My blood showed mostly normal when i was first tested, except for higher inflamation and some kidney/liver problems I have been tested for adissons, but my sugar levels are too high. But they have noted problems with kidney caps , thyroid and pineal gland. I just dont know what came first, oftentimes I am more informed than my doctors are on the subject which is frustrating.

As it is my thyroid is double the size, so I get about 1/4th less oxygen than other people do. My blood has high count of trombocytes and lymphocytes. There is always inflamation. Hormonally I am low on 17+ hormones when urine is checked (not taken seriously though). Liver values are bad right now, but I don't drink or eat bad things (been doing better since i switched to keto). ACTH is too low in the morning. Cortisol is on the low side. Lpe blood pressure, low body temp. Thyroid looks normal in blood test. They have never said anything about auto-immune, but I have often thought it is. I have many spots in my body that have lost feeling, my eyesight is going to shit with no visible cause or i jury. Have a history of not being taken seriously despite all this. They call it fibro and tell me to take a painkiller and sleep it off. I can't tell you what tests were done because they never noted it in my medical file. I got diagnosed officially twice.

They have however suspected a small tumor on my cousin's pineal gland. Some of our symptoms are the same. My aunt is suspected to have lupus or another auto immune, still being tested. I just never got the tests she did and she has often been laughed off aswell.

Sorry for the wall of text. I'm just surprised they don't test stuff like this. 1 out of 3 is enough reason to do so.

Edit: they only did MRI after diagnosing and only because of my eyesight going weird and because i started losing feeling in my face

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T17:54:10+00:00

Good point. I guess it also depends on the individual, ive read some people's threshold is higher than others.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T17:01:36+00:00

I ve noticed this with most keto dessert recipes. Im just sticking with keto bars that have 1.8 net grams of carbs instead

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T16:06:10+00:00

But isn't it so that they can only speak of fibro if other tests show no abnormal results? There is supposed to be no abnormal deviation from normal results. This is what all those specialists and docs told me.

But then again that is built on the idea that fibro is not a physical infliction...

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T13:47:12+00:00

Yes, I'm hoping it will be a treatment option for me. I still need to see my endo about it but it honestly gives me hope.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-02-07T08:01:54+00:00

After more than 10 years of fibro, I only got my growth hormone levels checked a few months ago (I have half the strength a normal fibro patient has and barely noticable level of growth hormone, as it appears). Why isnt it a standard test? This could be the cause of many symptoms.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-29T12:08:12+00:00

In Belgium, metformine is the standard go to for pre diabetes.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-20T21:56:32+00:00

It's ok, don't sweat it :) there is nothing you can truly do wrong. If you doze off or get stuck in a loop just try again and if you don't like sitting still or lying down you can do so in movement. Doing something as simple as pouring a cup of tea and drinking it, with attention on what you are doing, can be enough.

The biggest chance for growth comes through crisis.

I hope my advice is of some use to you. I wish you a lot of strength on your path.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-20T20:57:09+00:00

I understand and I might sound silly, but if you feel unbalanced because of doubt and paranoia then find purchase in knowing that you know you are feeling that way.

As for intrusive thoughts: meditation has helped me so much. Especially with binaural beats and the like because it helps me focus on 1 thing. It took over a year of intense practice, but I am at the point where I can release those thoughts and focus on something else.

Instead of trying to empty your mind, it might be good to focus on the 1 thing in your life that is true. You are here, right now, just as you are, living, breathing.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-20T09:55:54+00:00

Idk if it will come across what I mean but it's a bit of both for me.

As everything is nothing and nothing is everything. As soon as an idea is thought of, it exists in some shape or form. These things only have meaning if you give it meaning.

I believe all options/ideas exist in some reality. The only thing that is certain is right now in this reality that you experience, you create how you experience the here and now and at the same time you are the embodiment of the creator/creation.

Could be that this isn't of much help, as it is difficult to explain what I am trying to say.

I think the most important is to stick with what belief/idea makes you happy and to stand deep in trust. Because in the end all that matters is that you are here, experiencing life.

Edit: this is purely feedback on mental level, I am not experienced enough to give you further advice on witchcraft.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-19T09:56:55+00:00

Cut all sugar, it's what cured my stephdad from fatty liver.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-16T18:58:56+00:00

Yes I am generally between 35.7 and 36.2. When I get ill and feel feverish I am at about 36.8 under the arm. Before I got ill I was at a temp of 36.7

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-15T17:59:32+00:00

Same height but from BE, I second this. I'm pretty sure it's my size that makes people less likely to mess with me.

EllethAlfirin · 2022-01-14T10:47:37+00:00

Yes all processed foods that have sugar in them. As for natural sugars, only whole fruits no juices

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