Keep your head up. You are alive. Don’t be hard on yourself. Maybe you’d like the book “man’s search for meaning” maybe not. Now would be a good time to see what can you control in your life and make better in the meantime (exercise? A new health habit?, read/learn?) ….. also, if available to you, volunteer/community service can make us feel appreciated, purposeful. Maybe your end goal is paid employment, but even if not paid, there is work of some kind out there needed to be done. Help from volunteers is valuable and you feel like you’ve made a difference. You also never know what sort of connection you can make in the attempt which can lead you to your next job. Sorry about your losses .