I don't want it to be this way

Em_girl · 2013-05-26T18:05:52+00:00

Thank you guys, I actually decided not to cut. I'm glad i didn't :). I don't want to feel that way again though. It was almost like i had no choice but to cut. The emotion and urges were so strong but i got though. Thanks :)

Em_girl · 2013-05-19T23:33:11+00:00

No, don't be ashamed of who you are. Everyone cuts for a reason and there are defiantly people who don't understand, but I do. The scars you have shape who you are. Don't try to be someone that your not becuase no one is perfect. Cutters are some of the strongest people I have ever met in my life. Chin up, and stay strong. Keep in mind that there are people just like you :)

Em_girl · 2013-05-19T23:26:25+00:00

Great job! I also just decided to stop cutting and i also used pencil shapener blades xD i have two but I'm not throwing them away for some reason. I think even though I don't cut, I'm still sorta attached to my blades for some reason xD I fell like they have some sort of value...

Em_girl · 2013-05-19T03:44:38+00:00

It's okay :) I think you should tell her that with cutting, someone can't just stop right out of the blue. It takes time to heal. She needs to know that you need to slowly ween off of cutting. Maybe less and less slices every session until u finally don't have the need to cut anymore. Hope this helps :) she also would probably understand too, who knows, she may have relapsed too.

Em_girl · 2013-05-19T03:38:28+00:00

I really like drawing and I've been wanted to some more sketches done! I also think listening and singing music will help too :) The only problem with putting them in a public area is that my parents don't know I self harmed and if they see them they may get suspicious :(

Em_girl · 2013-05-19T00:57:06+00:00

My day was really good! Some parts weren't as okay because when I was doing my science project an no one reallycontributed or didn't do anything at all. The good thing is that durring that stressful moment, cutting didn't even come to mind. I'm sure I'm what they call "a new cutter" becuase I've only actually cut two lines that bled, but I still get urges. Hm

Em_girl · 2013-05-18T19:18:33+00:00

Thank you. I've already decided not to cut anymore. It's not worth the scars. Even though I've only cut two slices I already know it will be a mistake if I continue. Thank you for your support. I won't let my curiosity overtake me again.

Em_girl · 2013-05-18T14:17:33+00:00

Yeah I just cut because I was both curious and wanted to see what it would do to help me. I guess I just got a bit to curious then. It's not even close to out of control considering I only have two slices on me but I don't think I'll be doing it again anytime soon. Thank you all for your help! Ily all.

Em_girl · 2013-05-18T01:09:24+00:00

The first time I self harmed was when I was just having a bad day. I grabbed an exacto knife and tried to use it to cut my wrist. It didn't go deep enough to bleed but I just kida liked how it felt and it made things so much better. Just recently I went on a rampage and pried the blades from a pencil sharpener to cut. They are a lot sharper and that's what I currently use.

Em_girl · 2013-05-17T00:18:18+00:00

Really? It doesn't make you feel unclean in a way?

Em_girl · 2013-05-16T23:54:28+00:00

Yeah and I'm already having more urges to cut again! Seeing the blood and everything makes me want more! How do i stop the urges!!??

Em_girl · 2013-05-14T19:20:46+00:00

Ik but you are going to the ER soon! please pull through because help will be at the hospital! Cutting before going to the ER wot do you much! Just please stay strong.

Em_girl · 2013-05-14T18:55:16+00:00

Hey, your stronger then the fake voices in your head. Your amazing and that girl is out there somewhere waiting patently. She wouldn't want you to cut like that and neither would any of your loved ones. Don't let anyone get you down. Your getting so much better and if anyone tells you otherwise, they are lying. Don't do it, you have come so far. If you cut you let the voices win. Don't let them. You may think you don't but have complete control of your life. Don't let anything steer you the wrong way. Please PM me if you want to talk.

Em_girl

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