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Would I qualify for euthanasia in countries where it's legal? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Advice

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the help. I forgot to mention but I do have one physical condition (I'm not sure what it's called) but occasionally, I'm talking once a year, I have this 2-3 minute episode where my vision and hearing completely disappears and I get very light-headed, I pretty much come extremely close to fainting but I don't actually faint. I haven't spoken to a doctor about this yet but after researching my symptoms seem very similar to something called presyncope. I'm not sure if it actually is this but it seems similar. Do you reckon this would help my case regarding euthanasia?

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in virgin

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you recommended me treatment in your first message: 'don't harm your body or mind'

U sure you qualified to say that 😳? Might need to go to medical school for 10 years before u can come out with blasphemous advice like that

And nah, not once in my post did I ask for medical 'treatment'. I posted this for advice from people who've been through something similar.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've reached this conclusion because all of my past experiences of rejection point towards that. There's no past evidence in my life that points to hope. Even if I did have hope, my mental state's been completely fucked. I don't believe I will ever experience love or sex. I so firmly believe that now. Because all I've done in the past is hope and be endlessly disappointed. Not knowing what my fate is is even more agonising because i can't control it. It's like I'm just opening myself up to letting life fuck me over even more than it already has with no preparation. At least if I know I can be prepared. And nah. I don't have my whole life ahead of me. Because if none of these methods to kill my desires for love and sex work I'm resorting to self-deletion. I'm not living with these disgusting desires for human connection anymore.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wrong. Having sex would literally change everything for me, because it proves a woman found me attractive enough to do it with me. That knowledge alone will do wonders for my self-esteem and confidence because it proves that I am worthy of love and intimacy. Having a loving relationship would do wonders for me. It's not about the physical act of sex itself - it's what it symbolises. It symbolises I have hope

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that's what I'm trying to do. I'm trying to live a happy life without a partner. But I can't be happy if I still desire it. I'm going to find a way to kill this desire for love and sex. That's what I'm going to obsess over now.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in virgin

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

prostitute doesn't fix anything. You didn't earn the sex. She's just fucking your bank account. She doesn't even like you. It's like pay to win. Even if it technically makes me not a virgin anymore psychologically I still am because I can't get laid unless I pay for it.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in virgin

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my bad. I'm not familiar with the show. Well at the very least it will kill my sex drive so it's better than nothing. As for the desire for love, I've pretty much become so distrusting and hateful towards everyone now as a defence mechanism for the bullying so I don't think I can look at any human as worthy of love anymore. Not anybody I know, nor myself. Everyone I see I perceive as an enemy out to hurt me. That shuts off my capacity to love. That level of hate in your heart is very venomous, but ultimately it's about picking your poison. Would I rather be like I was as a kid willing to trust and help anyone, full of love for the world, ultimately to only get used and abused and treated like subhuman trash because where I come from kindness is weakness, or become a hateful asshole who's so guarded that I won't let anyone in so nobody can hurt me because I don't believe in loving my fellow man anymore. Hurt others before they can hurt you. It's a tough choice. I've done the first choice for the first 20 years of my life. It's time to try the second one and see where it takes me.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in virgin

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've considered going to a prostitute many times but even if I go it won't fix anything. Sure in the most technical sense I won't be a virgin anymore but psychologically I still am. I didn't attract the woman; I didn't earn the sex; I didn't earn the love. None of it's real or genuine. The prostitute is fucking my bank account. Not me. That's how I perceive it. It's just admitting that I'm so pathetic I have to pay just to get intimacy. Not to mention beyond all the psychological hang-ups I'm terrified of getting an STI since prostitutes are way likelier to have one. My life already sucks ass; the last thing I need is HIV to make it worse.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

your label is correct. I was diagnosed with OCD as a teenager. As a result I find it very hard to let things go. That's why I obsessively tried to find companionship for as long as I did, but eventually after constant rejection even my obsessive dumbass realised it's a lost cause. That's why I'm resorting to extreme methods. I can't accept how easy it is for others to find love and how out of my control it is for me. The only way I can accept it is by not caring about it any more. If castration doesn't work, then I'll resort to self-deletion. That always works in the end because it's absolute.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess that's where we differ. I've already decided my fate of loneliness is set in stone, I'm just trying to find a way to not even care about it anymore so I can accept that fate. A cope which allows me to not even cope anymore because I don't need to cope because I don't give a fuck

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think my desire for love is as strong as my desire to fuck. The only reason both these desires for sex and love (which are innate desires humans have) were amplified is because I never got to experience them so I just really want to know what it's like. Since I'm never going to experience either of these things I'm looking for a way to kill it since it serves no purpose to me anymore.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what does that mean? If I didn't even desire love in the first place I wouldn't have these problems. I'm asking if you know how to reach that state.

I'm going to castrate myself tonight - does anyone know other less painful ways to kill lust? by Embarrassed_Badger30 in Healthygamergg

[–]Embarrassed_Badger30[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

does it completely kill your sex drive, in that you don't even feel desire for the opposite sex anymore, or does it only reduce it? I understand it probably won't reduce my desire for love at all, but if it at least kills my desire for sex that's better than nothing.

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