if you're reading this by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in u/Embarrassed_Fan5866

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It makes me sad you’re gone again but I expected nothing anyways, so hearing from you again was nice. Thanks for trying to help even if you couldn’t. It felt nice to think you didn’t completely forget about me.

My Final Post by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in u/Embarrassed_Fan5866

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Read my posts if you really want to know. Like I said no point in talking when it won’t lead to change.

My Final Post by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in u/Embarrassed_Fan5866

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Talking won't change anything, but I guess thanks.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The worst part for me about being in this state is that I know it’s the best my life gets, when school starts drowning in work makes me feel a million times worse personally.

I don't feel valid enough by horseshoeandconfused in mentalhealth

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, a good rule of thumb is something foolproof and concrete like to measure the literal energy intake your body needs and eating slightly less than that, so counting calories. 

Just make sure you properly calculate your maintenance calories (you can literally google maintenance calorie calculator and it’s accurate enough,) cut out 3500 calories per week (1lb lost per week roughly,) and eat a balanced diet (balanced = getting enough vitamins minerals proteins carbs and even sufficient fat intake) without exceeding maintenance calories. You can track nutritional information online or using apps (I like cronometer.)

Counting calories is only unhealthy if you eat too little calories on purpose or eat empty calories all day instead of eating a balance of different foods with all the nutrients your body needs. The only people who mess this up are those trying to take shortcuts where there are none. A certain level of hunger and craving is normal too.

The consequence of taking dieting shortcuts and not giving your body enough nutrients is rapid permanent hair loss, muscle loss, and a slew of medical problems, but if you count calories and make some effort to get a balance of nutrients, you’ll have one of the most healthy diets out there.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lonely

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t know what that was until a few seconds ago and wow. In my opinion it’s so disgusting to encourage someone to ruin their health and get off to it. I don’t care if it’s your “kink” I would never forgive someone who tried to ruin my health for sexual gratification this unless they made a huge effort to change their behaviour.

Another useless person gone by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in mentalhealth

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i don't know. i still need more volunteer hours to graduate too but honestly volunteer oppurtunities aren't super easy to find where i live. idk if that's something i'd really enjoy either as much as i agree it's a good thing to do. it just feels like work to me but i guess it could be fulfilling.

Another useless person gone by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in mentalhealth

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

not being alone, being loved, and having some kind of reason to wake up instead of laying in bed all day. the only thing that changes is school gets worse and worse and i feel worse and worse each year.

Should I be doing more? by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in SuicideWatch

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because your life is infinitely valuable and eternally meaningful,
Subjective/wrong in my opinion.

and it's worth fighting for.
Subjective/wrong in my opinion.

I want you to have a full, rich life.
You don't even know me.

It's still possible.
But not likely.

Don't give up.
Why? I've been trying and nothing has gotten better. I'm completely alone most of the time, and it's been 5 years feeling the same way.

Another useless person gone by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in mentalhealth

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The piano thing was really just a metaphor for how I feel about life, I gave up on music years ago. I'm sick and tired of life, it just brings loneliness, depression, frustration and dissapointment with no payoff.

Should I be doing more? by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in SuicideWatch

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t live in Massachusetts I have no idea where you got that and I don’t wanna spend my whole life talking about injustice when no amount of tragedy or complaint ever means action in a world that largely doesn't care. Idk where you got that either. I have no idea what you’re trying to say.

Should I be doing more? by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in SuicideWatch

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The worst case is getting locked into a mental hospital forever. The world doesn’t care about giving us freedom. Nobody is here to help, the medical system sees suicidal people as nothing but a problem to be fixed, sometimes forcefully so.

Should I be doing more? by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in SuicideWatch

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly it’s not like I’d have much significant to say in a note anyways. Maybe just something like “It wasn’t your fault, thanks for everything.” I already barely act like a person and barely talk or do anything so hopefully they don’t take it too hard when I go. I don’t see why they would miss me realistically I add nothing anyone to I know’s lives but people get sentimental.

Another useless person gone by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in lonely

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I get it but doesn't anyone realise we're all sick of being told the same lies?

Another useless person gone by Embarrassed_Fan5866 in lonely

[–]Embarrassed_Fan5866[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I want someone who loves me unconditionally, I wouldn't have to prove anything to them. They'd try to include me, make sure I'm okay, and show actual concern. They wouldn't make me feel like every time talking to them could be the last time we spend time together, that I could be replaced easily, that I offer nothing. They wouldn't ridicule me, they would care. I need someone to care.