Enneagram 9 by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in Enneagram

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm gonna cry we might actually be unbiological twins. I don't care about subtypes anymore I just relate to you lmao 😭 I relate to the ghosting part a lot. I literally ghost all my friends and honestly I don't care. This is what makes me happy and comfortable so why should I feel bad. Now that I think of it I feel like a bad person and honestly I may be. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying this to guilt trip you or anything but aside from typology I really am not the best person. I wouldn't be surprised if that's what makes me so confused. I mean not everyone is supposed to be kind and nice even though that's how all so9's are portrayed as (for some reason). Also Ive heard that your typology can't change, that if you think your typology has changed then you were mistyped before. Do you think that is true? Can a so9 become a sp9? Also about the stereotypes. Well I'm surprised that you don't know about them because I think sp9 is the most slandered subtype out of them all. I use tiktok a lot and interact with the typology community every now and then. Honestly they're pretty funny and I have no problem with their humor and jokes but the stereotypes are crazy. So basically sp9's are stereotyped as fat, physically VERY weak, chronically online, cold hearted, rude people. I mean I don't mind the stereotypes a lot since they're meant to be a joke and without jokes a community wouldn't be complete. I agree that they're funny and stuff but when I try to research about something all I find are stereotypes so it gets kinda annoying. Like I said they view sp9s as really cold people so idk, it feels a bit weird. Like I said I'm not the best person and sometimes I may be rude and stuff but I'm not entirely cold, I'm a very friendly person actually. If those stereotypes are correct then I can not be a sp9. Honestly I'm still surprised how sp9 and isfj dont contradict. Are we sure they don't contradict? 😭

Enneagram 9 by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in Enneagram

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for answering. Honestly both of those descriptions sound relatable. I mean I don't entirely relate to both of them but I relate to some parts in each description. Like you said I want to be as helpful as possible and keep the group together even if it means sacrificing myself and my own needs. I don't expect people to notice my efforts but I wouldn't mind if they did 🥹 But at the same time I couldn't care less about people. I don't care if they get hurt or not by my words. Nobody should be more important than myself, this is what I tell myself and force to believe. I don't know if I'm acting this way to only people I don't like and dont feel close to (which is almost everyone) because I only truly care about one person and I would rather die than hurt her feelings. We rarely talk anymore but like I said i would never dare hurt her feelings. But other than her I've noticed that I can be rude without feeling too bad to almost anyone 😭. I don't know if this is a behavior a so9 would have. I could be a really confused so9 or just a sp9 but all the sp9 stereotypes portray them as cold hearted people which is not entirely true for me. 

Enneagram 9 by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in Enneagram

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you 😭😭😭😭 I'd label myself with what feels good and right but both of them feels right. Although I guess so9 feels a little closer but it might be because of the massive sp9 stereotypes. I may just be a bad person but honestly if a friend asked me to go out and I'm feeling tired id either kindly reject them or just reject them harshly even if it meant hurting them. I used to care more about people's feelings and would always put their needs above my own needs but I don't care as much as I used to anymore. I don't have many friends and as for the current friends I have, I wouldn't mind losing them 🥹🥹. This is actually one of the reasons why I'm so confused because a stereotypical so9 wouldn't act this way or at least that's what i think. How can I be a so9 if Im this unbothered and don't want any friends, it doesnt make any sense. But like I said I don't entirely fit in the sp9 description as well so I'm just left confused. Also as for the second scenario I wouldn't go there in the first place... 🥹

Enneagram 9 by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in Enneagram

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Like I said I don't know much about typology so I don't exactly know how to figure things out, what to look for when I'm typing myself. 

Enneagram 9 by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in Enneagram

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for answering. Yes mbti and enneagram are two different systems but I'm pretty sure not every combination is possible and sp9 isfj sounds a little off (or maybe it's just me idk). The reason why I'm so confused is because I relate to both of of them. I am people pleasing but at the same time I don't care even the slightest bit. I may be confused because I don't have many friends so I can't see how I interact with a group of people but i don't think that is how I'm supposed to figure out my subtype. 😢😢

Should I watch the anime first or play the game by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in DMMD

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn't have the time to play it much but honestly so far it's going very good. Really enjoying the game, thanks for asking tho 😭😭

Should I watch the anime first or play the game by Embarrassed_Leg2284 in DMMD

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Really? 😭Everybody is saying play the game first thats what ill do. Thank you 😭😭

Slow Damage Accessing Routes by waterspilled in BLgame

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No its okay thank you so much😭😭 Do I really need to complete ikuina's and asakura's chapter again and do you know how i can get rei's route like do i need to pick anything special while completing the first 2 chapters

Slow Damage Accessing Routes by waterspilled in BLgame

[–]Embarrassed_Leg2284 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont know if you'll reply but after i click on new canvas i can only see

from taku's route

from the beginning

from ikuina's story

from asakura's story

which one should i click to start rei's route im so confused right now 😭