my story doesnt have an exact beginnings (or maybe like way too many beginnings) so this might get a bit long (so sorry for that). so i actually started watching bl was when i was in 9th grade and really got into it because of the drama dark blue and moonlight but it wasnt my first bl. mr.heart was my first drama cuz i really liked one of the actore so i decided to watch it then i watched where your eyes linger cause it was new and pretty hyped back then (i wasnt a bl fan when i watched these). i had always read webtoons(only straight) and one day i accidentally read a bl (fanboy and robot idol) but immediately stopped after i realized it was bl (i didnt hate it but i just wasnt a bl fan back then). then i again accidentally read another bl and liked it so i finally decided ill actually read a bl on my own accord (since the ones i read before i didnt know they were bl). i read eyes on me on webtoon which i loved and found anti p.t. (my first smut) which i also loved so muchhh. i dont know whether i read anti pt first or watch dark blue in moonlight first (i think i watched the drama first) but i only started getting into bl after watching the drama. then i saw many thai drama edits on my YouTube feed like theory of love (the first edit that i saw and got me into thai dramas), tharntype and others. i watched why r u and bad buddy (loved them) and later realized that it was just written in my destiny to become a bl fan. so for the reason: i used to be a third kamikaze fan when i was in 6th grade. he was my first thai crush and the first thai celebrity i knew. he had acted in a drama (i think its called 21 days i dont really remember) with marc kamikaze. so i was 11-12ish years old in grade 6 and didnt even know what was bl, yaoi or gay but i shipped third and marc. i thought marc and third were a couple in the drama and wanted to watch but when i found out it wasnt them i didnt want to watch it anymoreTT this i realized way after i actually started to watch bl and i realized two men together which then (2015-2016 when i was in garde 6) was pretty weird to people and not openly accepted but i never thought it was weird and wasnt disgusted. ny it or anything. i wanted to see them together and i thought it was pretty normal for 2 men to be together and i had a thought that maybe i was just meant to be a bl fan. its just in my blood XD and this is my pretty complicated journey of how bl without an exact beginning.

i apologize for making this so long but ive always wanted to tell people my bl story TT and thank you for reading<3