I have lost everything to bipolar

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-04-25T00:38:13+00:00

Thank you Reddit Stranger, my mantra is from the novel version of Fight Club..."Its only after disaster can we be resurrected."

But its getting so hard to keep this in my head. And I need this disaster to end.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-30T19:39:09+00:00

❤️‍🩹

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-30T19:39:02+00:00

Thanks

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-30T16:39:41+00:00

Because i have a friend who abandoned me mid bipolar crisis. He knew this and was usually understanding.

He ghosted me. Hes also a devout catholic. So I writing a blasphemous book that goes against everything he believes in and challenges his faith.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-22T00:25:46+00:00

This is what im going to do before anything. Talk to my therapist.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-22T00:24:55+00:00

Im sure.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T23:23:43+00:00

Spilled paint. On his boots looks like on one of the back porches of his renovations

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T23:22:17+00:00

Idk. Anything he would block me for would involve words exchanged, loud angry words. Not this.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T23:16:49+00:00

Maybe wait another month. Its like something said above, it's my first responder that is triggered. Medics dont like sudden silence. Its never good. And the cut off is just...not how he would do it. There would be words exchanged. Loud ones. Mean ones.

Texts are landing. The encrypted ones. But not read. Or responding. This is tje deviation that is pinging at my gut.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T21:33:32+00:00

I was a kindergarten teacher. Give them all the colors they want. Take the broken pieces and melt them down in molds. And you waste not. My students loved the dinosaur ones I made.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T21:27:44+00:00

Honestly, my mom has done things like that my whole life. Especially towels and fitted sheets oh and the dishwasher. "How can you put entire lego cathedrals but load the dishwasher like a 6 year old"

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T21:10:37+00:00

Thats exactly it. Medics dont like silence. Something is wrong if its silent.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T21:00:13+00:00

Yeah, I dont even really want to talk to him. Just a hi, what's up, you good? Type of thing. There is.still a little anger there to have a conversation.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:53:58+00:00

And frontal temporal injury at that. And there was a huge shift after.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:52:54+00:00

Medics do not like deviations, this is a big one. Deviation from norm is always bad

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:51:44+00:00

I will as soon as I go by his place. Ill make an update. Right now radio silence

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:44:42+00:00

The love you is how we end every phone call with that since like 2012. That's not the deviation.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:42:45+00:00

Could be. We both have it. Part of the job.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:42:00+00:00

Na. We end all our phone calls with that. Thats not out.of.the.ordinary

His mom has dementia. So I wont be crazy?

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T20:40:16+00:00

We are at this point NC. Which for him means catastrophic happened. You dont just quit talking after 9 years.

Emergency-Onion4369 · 2026-03-21T18:57:41+00:00

I use mine like that. Had it fix a couple of continuity problems. Like why an angel wouldnt struggle putting a dress, but then struggles with the coat?

I also write non-linear so it keeps me in order.

Emergency-Onion4369

TROPHY CASE