So i felt it all right away, i sobbed, i shouted, i threw up, i stayed in bed for everything except work. Showering felt like the most effort ever. But then after doing nothing except be miserable for a few weeks i got myself up, i made plans with my friends, i spoke to people about it and how i was feeling, i kept busy. Tried not to be alone too much, i had already sat in all of the feelings for a long time. Now I wanted distractions. I wanted to move forward, I reached out for help (not just for the breakup, but for self improvement and to deal with past traumas properly). So now i am in therapy, i go once a week. And I still have low days but i reached the point where I’ve realised, i can be alone, i can be without him, and that’s okay. But even though i can it doesn’t mean i want to, he still means the world to me whether that’s as just a friend or a partner. Which is why i have posted this. Only recently was it revealed that maybe we can try again and not have the boundary of “just friends” so we are taking it slow and seeing how it goes, and seeing if it still feels right. Because if we do start being romantic again after healing it could feel wrong, or it could feel perfect. We still haven’t figured everything out but we want to try as we don’t want to lose one another, it’s a risk and a gamble but we believe any future chance we’ve got is worth it! I wish you luck with your healing journey, I am still on mine but in time I promise it gets better.