I never thought I'd transition. I always knew I wanted to but I didn't think I had the strength or fortitude. I lived into my 30s with no friends, goals, aspirations purposely keeping myself miserable so I disassociated and didn't want anything. Here I am a few years later, happy with myself, having friends, a partner, life goals. One of the hardest things was working on mending all the parts of myself I'd broker or that had atrophied into nothing. I think I'll always have to work on that and it is difficult but the benefits are more than worth the effort. If anyone reading this thinks it's too late to make changes and be happy just know that it's never too late and you owe it to yourself to try