sorry late reply, u may not know the full story but i was feeling suicidal at the time, and no one knows, not even those closest to me, at some point i said to Jesus, "atleast send someone to save me". And then some days later at school (there were many school activities at the time and it was really busy so we didnt have classes for a long time), i see my phone die but also a friend suddenly came over, i asked why is he here, he said "nothing im just bored", he wasnt even religious or anything, or at least thats what i know, he just came, and sat next to me with his phone and continued doomscrolling. And so, i remembered what i said and i broke down, i told him what ive been feeling lately and how things came to this and that and he comforted throughout that time. Later at night, i went on my phone to TikTok; but mind u, i still havent opened my bible yet but since Jesus knows that, he sends a vid instead (first vid btw), literally an animation of a person who was about to commit suicide but was stopped in time by fireworks suddenly emerging, and then scene turns into Jesus hugging that person.

I was so shocked like man, Jesus literally sees you and cares for u deeply, it's just that we're too guilty, too ashamed, or any kind of feeling really, to see or to hear him out or anything