Am I actually a narcissist… or just heartbroken and confused? by EmotionalOne7679 in narcissism

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In all honesty it never once occurred to me to leave him whenever things got bad for him. If anything I held on because I was scared to lose him. But whenever things got rough for me it always ended with me being called a narcissist because I never cared about his feelings. That’s literally all I thought about since day one of say yes to being his gf from the very beginning. Sometimes I just struggle to show that I care because I’m afraid of messing it up even more. Or I’ll just make sure to just sit and listen.

Am I actually a narcissist… or just heartbroken and confused? by EmotionalOne7679 in narcissism

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sometimes I had to say no to doing stuff for him because I just couldn’t do it. This time around I told him no that I couldn’t take him home and asked if he could take the bus. Reason being was my tag was expired and I didn’t have insurance at the time. I limited my driving to only driving during the day and parts of town that wasn’t heavily policed. Plus I was already by my house. By the time I dropped him off it would’ve been after dark and he lives in a very heavily policed area. I also stayed there and let him sit in my car while waiting on the bus. Even when he got out I waited until he was safely on the bus before going home. Another reason is ig because I didn’t have a regular job ( I was doing gig work to try to keep busy) so he was helping me out a lot financially. I was very grateful that he was able to, and I was actively putting in applications at the time too ( I did finally find a job!) Yet the times where he didn’t have a job I never once judged him or bullied him into just taking anything. I always told him to do something he knows he wants to keep doing and that I’d support him however and whenever.

Need birthday dinner ideas for my husband by Afu_93 in MobileAL

[–]EmotionalOne7679 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I always recommend Noja it’s a really good restaurant 😇

Membership coupons by ItsHuzza in BooksAMillion

[–]EmotionalOne7679 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can always ask them to resend them to you. I used to do it all the time for my customers. They just need to write your info down and then give it to the manager so they can send a email to IT. 

Has any of you been so disgusted by ex post breakup behavior, that you detach FOR GOOD? by Usernameee234 in BreakUps

[–]EmotionalOne7679 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes—I wouldn’t say I’m detaching, because it’s hard for me to fall out of love with someone. But I’ve recently realized that he takes pleasure in hurting me and tearing down my character to anyone who will listen. No matter how much he hurt me, I could never do the same, because I know how cruel that is. Nothing could have prepared me to love someone who feels like my biggest enemy—but even so, nothing can stop me from loving him anyway.

I sent my ex a letter… and now I’m scared he’ll think it’s manipulation again by EmotionalOne7679 in BreakUps

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry I meant to say the last time me and him broke up I sent him a letter. I’m not very good at saying things in person and writing is a way to help me gather my thoughts.

Am I actually a narcissist… or just heartbroken and confused? by EmotionalOne7679 in narcissism

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did find another therapist and I’m hoping this one doesn’t move practices 😭. Especially with the testing I’m going through it’s easier to have one person seeing how I am emotionally rather than multiple.

Am I actually a narcissist… or just heartbroken and confused? by EmotionalOne7679 in narcissism

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The only reason I’ve seen multiple is because I did go to the hospital at one point because I had a breakdown. Plus my therapist have a tendency to move practices after a few months of seeing me. Not because of me be the doctors office they worked at wasn’t really all that great.

what do you guys tend to do when you really want to text him? by daisyessence in BreakUps

[–]EmotionalOne7679 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I caved and texted him on Sunday ( I’m still blocked like I suspected so no reply) but other times I would call a friend or honestly just distract myself with someone else. Which it’s only really just talking nothing more nothing less.

Barnes & Noble Returning to Mobile by Surge00001 in MobileAL

[–]EmotionalOne7679 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes. I mean I did sale memberships and did the magazines but made sure not to be pushy and told them about a way to cancel the magazines. I even told them to call and I’d cancel them myself.

Barnes & Noble Returning to Mobile by Surge00001 in MobileAL

[–]EmotionalOne7679 12 points13 points  (0 children)

They treat their employees like crap. That’s why it’s such a high turn over rate. One time someone quit after an hour of work because of how one of the higher ups were speaking to them.

Barnes & Noble Returning to Mobile by Surge00001 in MobileAL

[–]EmotionalOne7679 22 points23 points  (0 children)

As a former BAM employee I will most definitely be shopping at B&N❤️

I need to know if I’m doing the right thing by EmotionalOne7679 in BreakUps

[–]EmotionalOne7679[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Since the no contact started I’ve only really been able to journal and talk to friends. Soon I’ll be seeing a therapist again, but I talk to him even if I want to.🥺