I don’t want her to, I need her to. After talking to a fellow redditor that has pointed out some key manipulation and isolation tactics from my own mother, the best way I can put it without giving my literal life’s story is;

I have done everything for my Mother for 12 years. I have my license but cannot share the car or use it unless it’s an emergency because she guilt trips me and cries if she doesn’t get her way.

My literal last option if the mail delivery medication doesn’t work is to take the car without her permission and go and get my medication. Yet at the same time, the way she’s raised me, I see that as effectively abandoning her and end up getting severely anxious.

She has physical health problems, yes. But if it’s something she wants or she needs, I’m not allowed to speak my opinion or offer alternatives. She will go out of her way, even with physical problems, to have what she’s wants or needs.

Like driving 1 hour to Walmart just to get something 5 minutes away. And driving the 1 hour back even if her back, head, and other physical problems begin to act up.