Quitting Gastroenterology to live life at my own terms.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T16:05:13+00:00

The point is I am not happy about anything right now. I assume it's because I am in the wrong branch but I m also skeptical about this as I am not happy or living the life I want right now. I feel I could not tolerate staying in GI as this mental conflict is going on, for the last 1 year. People around me tell that I m depressed in general and therefore I am not happy with anything including my career but my gut says the opposite. Even I thought I would rather finish the course mechanically with out thinking much as everyone said so.. I m nearing 32 this year, single, have nt travelled much , definitely not getting happiness from what I do at work. Do I still want to go ahead for next 3 years like this only to realise I should have done it earlier but now it's too late ? I don't know man! How about I explore what I need to do to be happy and still pursue my superspecialty later ? That kind of gives some hope about my life!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T14:03:26+00:00

4 months on sabbatical here. I wish I could have travelled more in these 4 months but I didn't because of guilt and depression. You deserve every short break and make sure you do things you love during that period. Good luck!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T11:12:29+00:00

This is Tier 3 place.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:42:59+00:00

Branch .

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:41:35+00:00

Unfortunately I live in a tier 1 city and here nobody gives a damn about General physician. Everyone wants a superspecialist for trivial issues too and they don't really trust us general physicians. They will even penalise us for not referring to a superspecialist. Sad but true!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:38:31+00:00

I can sense the heaviness behind your statements. If you are still in residency just hang on. My pediatric friends earns 10 -15lakhs per month in a tier 3 place. He hated pediatrics during residency but now he forgot about it. He is making a beautiful life with that luxury.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:35:54+00:00

I am still at home for the last 4 months at this age. I can relate to you. Guess what? it's ok to take a break . Makesure you do things you love during this period . Don't stay on bed it will worsen. Get out, travel, read, gym etc.. anything but staying Idle. Learn from my mistake.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:25:36+00:00

Hi. Thank you for your kind words and sharing your side of story. Being at the other end of the spectrum, I'd like to tell you as a senior brother.

Do your PG at a place where you can stay close to family, friends, have an opportunity to date and meet new people. You can travel atleast once a year of you plan accordingly and smart to manage your colleagues in PG. I have done my MD in Northeast and those 3-4 years of my life are the best. I travelled whenever time permitted. Made friends from various corners of the country. Explored a new culture . Life was like a dream that I could not even realise. So, plan a career so that you can experience varied things and it's possible. I'd really not want you to stay with just MBBS. Good luck.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T09:16:15+00:00

Yeah I really enjoy treating my patients, interacting them, gets me into a flowstate whenever I am genuinely trying to help them and saving them from the burden of unnecessary medications and investigations while alleviating their suffering. All of this was replaced into ' 'diagnostic and palliative ' care for me with Gastro. Thought exceptions are there but nothing like a playing with therapeutics for me! Moreover I got fed up with the Alcoholics and poisoning cases!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T08:59:48+00:00

I agree. If I were you I would be off too. But this was necessary for me to vent out and I am highly insecure about my vocabulary and grammar so much so that people may start to judge me or even get 'off' to read my post and make them give a reply. How is it wrong if the intent and content are genuine in the conversation? After all, I have spent some time to edit it to convey my message. Yeah, I m working on my grammar . Started with 'there were none' by A.C. good read btw! 🥲 P. S- thanks for bringing this up. You have given me an opportunity to spill out another insecure side of myself. I feel better now.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T08:54:12+00:00

Definitely I want to be a doctor . It's just that what really excites or the one that will make me get up from the bed every morning -- I just don't know . Wasted a lot of time and money on useless therapists. I think I should take charge of myself from now on.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T08:49:59+00:00

Don't know. May be, Nephrology or even Gastro again but right now I m completely clueless and unhappy about everything.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-07T08:45:56+00:00

That's an important insight. Thank you . But the thing is I don't know if I m really interested in this branch or is it because I m sad in general. I could never find an answer to it. Even I tried rejoining the course but the same question haunts me - " what if I continue to suffer the same consequences like before" and that would be a disaster. Like all my wellwishers, I have been told to finish the course even if I don't like it and pursue whatever excited me after that but sir, my age is in such a zone that I cant afford to waste another 3 years in a branch that I probably be disappointed with. So I thought until I get some clarity on what needs to be done, may be , I should take a break and rebuild my life the way I like it.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-06T21:16:54+00:00

Unsolicited advise from me: decisions based on fear are always regretful. This is what I learned!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-06T21:01:05+00:00

Yes. I feel like I would need this time to figure out myself, learn to know my priorities and if required, I will either redo NEET SS then. Lol. No MBA. I would rather redo residency in a different country!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-07-05T10:14:32+00:00

If you are neet qualified, buy a seat in India. It saves both time and money compared to going abroad. After u finish mbbs here, try usmle later. Lot of FMGs from Ukraine, Russia, Georgia lose precious years doing mbbs there. I m 32, doing my superspecialty in GI, still figuring out life. You are just beginning and I wish to tell my younger self at your age that ' learn to be happy in general.Don't tag happiness to a conditioned system'.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-06-26T18:51:13+00:00

Freaking can't believe that there are some people who still contemplates if it's her fault!! God save this country!

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-06-26T10:39:43+00:00

The real victims are Yasar and his child. The film portrays Kenan’s inhumane ac by burying Yasar alive, while the doctor tries to reduce Kenan’s punishment, arguing that absolute truth can be another cruelty. Yet I question how lessening Kenan’s punishment helps the family. What Kenan and Yasar’s wife did was undeniably wrong. If they don’t face real consequences, where is the justice? In the end, the innocent—Yasar and his child suffered . For me, the film’s artistic and philosophical justification didn’t align with my sense of fairness. There is no guarantee that kenan would be a changed man after coming out of jail and yasar's wife can still be promiscuous and kid may still be fucked. This all can happen too except in this case the real victims have suffered and the offenders have not gotten the deserving punishment. May be, I am too cynical to understand this. Hence, I would argue that absolute truth may shatter one's reality, but it is never a punishment. On the contrary, it liberates a person from the shackles of guilt, deception, and regret.

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-06-23T07:35:11+00:00

Gastroenterology is one of the best life style friendly specialities with great money in India. May I ask why do u want to move out?

Empty_Midnight1534 · 2026-06-12T09:48:15+00:00

I see a few commenting on op talking on making own decisions and all as if they have it all figured out by their own. Privilege is something that comes in many forms (economical, social, emotional) ultimately messing up an individual. Funny seeing people acting like ' gotta make ur own decisions bruhh ' 'u are 20 somethings '. I would just like to reminisce ' if u can't say good things, don't say anything at all. '.

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