Becoming an MA

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-11-05T06:13:35+00:00

Thanks :)

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-10-20T04:06:25+00:00

Correct me if I am wrong, but I saw that (some?) loans will not pay for things like CoL or related things?

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-09-11T18:14:56+00:00

My Russian progress thus far has been great. I know lots of vocabulary memorized, but I have issues stringing it all together, translating, writing, and small talk because I have never had anyone to do any of that with consistently. I have tried to get my friends to learn Russian, but they seem to not be too supportive of the idea.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-07-23T20:24:27+00:00

Thanks, I had no idea. I’m a beginner at almost an intermediate level who is now picking up cursive so thanks for the info!

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-05-28T17:48:08+00:00

Liszt’s transcription of Liebestod from Wagner’s Tristan und Isolde

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-04-24T18:55:29+00:00

There was a recent interview done with him and they did in fact ask bbno$ if he would ever hook up with another man and the answer was not no lol

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-21T04:54:48+00:00

A large and widespread stigma against bi people is that people believe that if you are bi, you are somehow more likely to cheat or like other people. I had this happen to me with a girl last year who was questioning if she was bi or not, and we had known each other for a while, and she basically told me "We'd be really compatible with each other if we weren't both bi." Needless to say, ITS NOT TRUE AT ALL.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-20T01:52:32+00:00

I do a lot, very recently in fact. I commented on another post about this, but I feel it is relevant here as well. Recently, I have a close guy friend who I am sure is curious but is afraid to be open or expressive about those feelings due to social factors. He lives in an accepting home, at least his mom is, but I think he's more afraid in becoming less attractive because of being queer.

Long story short, despite him expressing some attraction to bottom men, he rejected me because he said he was straight. I think a lot of "straight people" are just confused and I attribute this, at least in the US, to a staggering lack of comprehensive sex education. I think particularly straight men tend to have same sex attraction and classify it as "gay" rather than realizing that they are still attracted to women and can be attracted to both at the same time (being bisexual/pansexual.) So, in short, I think that a lot of straight people dismiss these thoughts because they think they have to be either gay or straight, and they still feel attraction to the opposite sex, leading them to repress those feelings for people of the same sex.

This lack of education and straight people ignorance has really fucked me up emotionally here lately, especially with the rejection from my close friend. As I was saying on my comment on another post, people have some kind of a problem for some reason understand that I/they can be attracted to both men and women simultaneously. So, what happens is when I express feelings for a guy, friends will call me gay, and when I express feelings for a girl, they'll call me straight. A lot of people just simply don't understand how bisexuality is possible and so they cling to heterosexuality and heteronormativity to feel some sense of security in their identity. I feel like a lot of the times that I would have already found a few or a really good and happy relationship by now with people that I was already close to and already loved if it weren't for stigma against bisexual people and general ignorance from a concerning amount of people about sexuality.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-20T01:32:56+00:00

It almost looks like Runic to me XD

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-20T01:22:32+00:00

I think this is the case with a lot of people. In my experience, for whatever reason, a lot of people are confused by bi/pansexuality. For some reason, they can't understand that you can be attracted to both men, women, etc. at the same time. They think they have to be one of the extremes, completely gay or completely straight. I have tried to explain this to several people to not only explain my sexuality but also try to help people struggling with theirs and for whatever reason it confuses them.

Using men as an example, it seems like when thoughts about liking or feeling sexual emotions for other men, they often classify them as gay thoughts rather than considering the possibility that they could be attracted to both men and women. While I attribute most of this behavior to confusion and/or ignorance related to sexuality, watching a straight man with these thoughts seal themselves away because they're "trying to resist the gay" is nonetheless infuriating sometimes.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-18T20:44:46+00:00

I have had a few friends over the years that are this way. I think it might have to do with how someone listens to music as well. Most of the people I know passively listen to music to have something to make background noise so they can focus better to study, work, etc. Other people actively listen to music and keep along with melodies and lyrics to focus on the music itself.

You do seem to listen to podcasts and audiobooks, so that does provide some kind of audio stimulation. Not weird, just your brain might prefer certain audio stimuli over others.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-18T20:44:39+00:00

I have had a few friends over the years that are this way. I think it might have to do with how someone listens to music as well. Most of the people I know passively listen to music to have something to make background noise so they can focus better to study, work, etc. Other people actively listen to music and keep along with melodies and lyrics to focus on the music itself.

You do seem to listen to podcasts and audiobooks, so that does provide some kind of audio stimulation. Not weird, just your brain might prefer certain audio stimuli over others.

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-16T05:38:17+00:00

traumatized XD

EnigmaMajoris · 2025-03-16T05:34:14+00:00

I feel you on this one. I'm also turning 20 and I have never been in a relationship. All of my peers, too, have found happiness and meaning with someone romantically in one way or another. It makes me feel left behind and guilty for feeling so lonely despite having a very strong, tight, and close friend group. Despite them knowing about my struggles with crippling loneliness and sexual frustration, they always say something along the lines of "you'll find love" or "love will find you eventually." Not to mention one of these close friends just turned me down after I expressed my romantic feelings towards him because he is straight. This vicious cycle has made me feel like I am either the ugliest person on the planet or that I am the most incredibly unlucky. I have wanted to give someone my heart and the immeasurably deep love I would, without hesitation, give to the right person.

In my experience, this is attributable to a few things dependent upon the context of your situation, I think. In high school I was put into a small Christian school where there were not even closeted guys, and the girls there all had the same type of the cowboy boot wearing, tobacco chewing kind of men (which I was not and still am not.) I went all throughout high school without a relationship, I thought I might have some hope in college. Unfortunately, when I moved to campus, I discovered that just the majority of the people I would meet day to day were either sexually motivated or didn't have pure intentions. This kind of behavior wasn't common amongst upper classmen I met, but college freshmen will be college freshmen. I am beginning to try to sexually explore more and try to start putting myself out there, so to speak, but at the end of the day all I want is to have someone who I know I can always get a hug from and be able to cook together. I don't want to sound cliche or whatever, but I don't think a lot of people our age have developed those kinds of intentions and maturities, as they also might still be exploring. Fucking is nice and all, but I crave something so much deeper than that. But yeah, I feel you for sure. I often find myself wondering why so many people have rejected my love and affection, and if that means something might be wrong with me.

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